Madly in love with twins

Choices, packing, and hard letters to write

Alec is gone.  Next to me I see a small box.  I read the small note.  I'm glad you love me too ~ Alec. .....
Of course I do. That's my problem I love you both. Opening the box I pull out a red squarish ring. Under the band it has the words: to you my love - Alec.  I sigh and slip it on my hand. "Merroooowww" ugh I forgot about October.  I look up at the cat. I can't help but to smile. "Hold on babe...." I run up my stairs to by bathroom. After wrapping my wrist several times with ACE bandages I wait for Andrew to come see me. He's not staying at my place tonight. He texted me earlier and said he's going to a lake with friends. I wanna tell how much I love him.

"Luna princess!" I hear Andrew call from down stairs. "Up here ands!" I don't hear him come up the stairs, I look up to see Andrew in front of me. He extends his arm and hands me a box much like Alec's. Why so many gifts today?  I open it to see a sliver bracket with two single blue gems and a slanted A and L etched on it. Fuck my life.  He slips it on my wrist. "Luna I got to go. I love you." He kisses my cheek. "I love you too Andrew." I hug him with all my might. "Bye I say." He kisses my head and is gone.

I sit and ponder for a minute. I whistle for October causing him to rush in and sit on my lap. "I'm seventeen.." I say to myself. "My moms gone, I can't stay here all my life. I need an adventure, an experience, I need to be me." I start seeing moments from each of them with me:

Alec:
"You know love, I have a special way of annoying girls into going out with me." I roll my eyes at his cockiness.

"I will go on this date if it means you stop stalking me and braking into my locker." He smirks. "I never said it was a date." He turned and left. I'm irratated and extremely excited.

Andrew:
In crying my eyes out onto Andrews chest. Right now I need him and only him. We sit in the bathroom stall sitting together with me in his arms.

Alec:
He grabs my wrist and smashes his lips on mine. This is it. My first kiss. I think to myself. It's rough but passionate. I'm happy it's with hip. He holds me like he's never gonna let me go.

Andrew:
Are lips are one kissing eachother. He's on top of me. "Can I?" I shake my head yes and have him bite me. I moan a bit. We start to make out. He kisses me so I'm not into much pain.

I wake up. I lost my Virginity! I'm so happy I'm so happy it was with Alec!

I snap back to reality to see the cat looking at me with pity. "Don't look at me that way October.." I pat him. He lays his head back down. I feel my eyes burn with tears. I bite my lip as the tears spill over and doesn't stop. I place him on the bed and grab my of mice and men suitcase. I play my music out load. I grab all my hair supplies, make up, charger, everything I need. I grab a cage for October.

I sit down at the table. I grab two nice pieces of paper and a pen.

Dear Alec,
I'm leaving to travel the world. I love you so much that you don't know. You're the first guy ever to love me and hold me. You stood up for me and protected me even if it meant killin people. I love that I could experience my first kiss with you. I will never forget you. I love you
Luna.
Tears still continue to fall. I can't stand to leave, but I can't stand to stay. If I stay it will be worse than me being with neither.

Dear Andrew,
Even know you came later on in my life, you where my world. I love you so much and treasure that you got to take my virginity. I melt kissing you and sleeping together. I'll miss you so much. Don't let anybody bring you down.
With love,
Luna.
As I leave the two notes on the bed I wipe my nose. I'm so upset. I'm bawling like a child. I take my stuff and  head to the train station. Good bye house.

I've lived here all my life. It sucks. My birthdays, my mom and I bonding, having both boy over. I give it one last look and head out.

Hey guys the next chapter is the ending. I like how it's gonna end.
Love you guys.