Joining the scout regiment

For you

Dad said to do what ever it takes to protect the family, and that's what I plan to do!
My hasn't left the house for weeks, same with Casey, me on the other hand have been out living each day, because I know my dad would have liked it like that!

"Mooom! you have to get out of the house, dad wouldn't want you to do this to your self!"

"DON'T YOU EVER MENTION HIM IN THAT SENTENCE, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT HE WOULD HAVE WANTED!"

Tears were falling down her face, I. Couldn't help it, I dropped to my knees and cried, for the first time I cried in front of my mother.

"Your right, I don't know what he would want, but, knowing dad, he would hate to see you like this."

I am still on the ground crying, when my m stand in front of me.

"Emma, you right."

"I know we can get though this, mom, as a family, even if it gets hard, and all you want to do is sit in a dark room, and cry, I won't let you. I am doing this for you mom, to help you and Casey get better."

"And I will try to get my life together and push though tuff time, for you!"

I looked up at my moms face, and for the first time for a long time, saw her smiling!"

"We have a deal then?!?!"

"Yes!"

The next few days we cleaned the house up, shopped at the market, walked the lake side, as a family! we were all trying to smile and have a good time, to help take our minds of our dad.

"Mom, can I cut my hair?"

I could see though the mirror to look my mom gave me.

"Why, it's so pretty long!?"

My hair went down to my lower back, close to my but when my mom started to brush the nots out of my long peach colored hair.

"Because I need a new start I Life, and this is the best way to start, my new start."

"Well....... how short do you want?"

As I looked in the mirror and started to think about it, you thought it would look good an inch below your shoulders.

"About a couple inches under my shoulders, if its okay with you!"

She smiled and said as long as it made me happy, it was fine with her.

The next day I went to a friend of your moms house to get my hair cut,and while she was cutting I couldn't help but think about how different and older I looked! With long hair I looked a year younger then I are know (which is 12) but know i looked 13, a year older.

"Wow, you look way different, weird!"

"Thanks Casey, but should I take it as a complement or an insult!?"

Casey just smiled.

"A complement, duh!

I turned around, looking in the mirror, when I remember two things. 1-it was a month from my birthday, and 2- in less then a year you have the chance to join the cadet corps, but I have a while to think.
If I did join it would be in honor of dad, and help mom save money for food for her and Casey.maybe when the time comes I will ask her, but till then I should start training in case I do join, I won't be skinny and weak, I might have some meat on my bones!

"MOM I AM GOING FOR I WALK! I WILL BE BACK SOON!''

OKAY, STAY SAFE! LOVE YOU!"

She must have been in her room up stairs. I felt bad lying to her, but if I am going to get stronger, she can't know, because she will yell at me and not let me join.

"I have to prove too her I can go!"

I didn't realize I said it out loud until a drunk solider came around the corner. the only thing I think of to do us run for it.
I dash down the street zigzagging though people, looking back to see if he's still chasing me, which he is, I turn the corner, not knowing its a dead end till I reached the wall.