Diary ni Ashlee

Entry # 6. Unfair

"Oh... nandito ka pala..." 

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako kinakabahan, basta na lang kumabog ang dibdib ko lalo na nang mapatingin ako sa mga mata ni Reed. 

Galit siya. I swallowed hard. Am I screwed?  Pero bakit siya magagalit. Wala naman akong ginawang masama. I didn't cheat on him because he's not even my boyfriend but then why do I feel like I cheated on him?

"Is that John Augustus?" He asked, his voice was so low it sounded like a whisper. I just acted casually, I don't have to be scared or something. Like I said, I am not doing anything wrong. Plus, I think I really like John. 

Nilagpasan ko siya. I took my keys and opened the door, I didn't even ask him to come in but then he did come in. I'm still pretty pissed about him having a girlfriend, I knew that I shouldn't be jealous but then, I'm still in love with him and even though I like John, what I feel for Reed is one thousand times more powerful than what I have with John. But then, Reed and I are so NOT in a relationship so why do I have to get mad for something like this?

I threw my purse, then I took off my shoes. I sat on the couch feeling that painful sting on my feet. Reed was just standing there still killer eyeing me - I rolled my eyes - as if naman tatablan ako noon. I ignored him. I just keep massaging my feet, it really hurts - kaya ayoko ng heels eh. But then I wanted to look really pretty for John - I smiled when I remembered the kiss he gave me - it was really something different... 

Reed's kiss was full of lust - iyon iyon eh.. But then, John's kiss was very romantic, it made my insides swirl with so much... kilig? Lalo akong napangiti, ang tanda ko na para kiligin! Pero para akong teenager na kakatapos lang ng first date!

"You look stupid." Reed commented. I raised my eyebrow. 

"Bakit ba? Kinikilig ako." nakangusong sabi niya. 

"You know, I am starting to hate you again." He said again. I just stayed there. I really don't care if he hates me right now. All I know is that I am happy. Isa pa even if he hates me, it doesn't make a difference naman. 

Hate lang ang meron si Reed para sa akin. 

Hate saka Lust. 

Teka diba kasama iyon sa seven deadly sins?

"I really don't care..." 

"Right..." He sat down in front of me and then he took my left foot. I was really surprised. He started massaging my foot and it feels heavenly. Napasandal ako sa couch. He's hands are really magical. 

"Hmmm... " Napangiti ako. 

"Did that Jackass treated you good?" Biglang tanong nito. 

"He's name is John and yes he treated me good, I really don't understand why you have to ask me, but he's a real gentleman and i think he's the best kiss I've ever had --- Aray!" Napadaing ako nang bigla niyang diinan ang hinliliit ko sa paa. I kicked him away. 

"Masakit!" 

"That's bullshit!" He said. 

"Paa ko iyon! Masakit!" reklamo ko pa. He sat beside me. 

"You are actually telling me that, that Jackass John Augustus kisses better than me?!"

"Yes!" Suddely Reed grabbed both my arms to pull me closer. He crushed his lips on to mine. I felt him palced his han around my neck and as he open his mouhth, he darted his tongue inside my mouth. A moan escsped from my lips, then to my surprise he suck the air out of my mouth! I have never been kissed like that. He kept doing what he was doing, oh how glorious his lips could be?!