Eva Marie

Chapter 6

I have no trust for people anymore. As hard as I try, some asshole comes along and crushes me. I've written about my father but, there's other people too who've destroyed my trust.
I had this certain person in my life. His names Conner. I was absolute bestfriends with him since I was 3 and he was 4. Our moms were bestfriends and his sisters were my friends too. I considered Conner my brother and I loved him. I loved him so much.
We grew up together because we were neighbors. I moved from that neighborhood when I was 9 and the same year I found our he had a huge crush on me. When I moved we talked a lot less but I'd occasionally go there to visit and he'd come here.
Everytime we hung out our entire family would goof around telling me he loves me and wants to date me. Eventually, me and Conner got closer and texted everyday at every single moment we could. Our moms would joke around and plan our "wedding". And everytime we'd skype his sisters would yell out that he loves me and would call me his girlfriend.
After a while I let him meet my bestfriends at the time, Sammy and Anne. It was soo fun! Anne, Conner and I would skype everyday and we all were bestfriends. Then Anne made fun of my dad abandoning me and me not knowing my family.
Half a year she was telling all of my friends that I was lying and no one believed me. It was at the point where I was crying in class because I just couldn't take it all anymore. And so I told Conner and I told him to stop talking to her for me. He told me he wouldn't stop doing so. This wasn't the first time nor the last time I was hurt by them.
This was the same time I started opening up and told people about me self harming. When I told Conner, he treated me like a complete freak and ignored me for a week. I'd keep going to my bestfriend at the time, Sammy, during it all because then was the first time I had ever felt depressed.
Then, after that week he started talking to me as if nothing happened. I didn't think anything of it because I just wanted my brother back. So we went back to normal and we swapped Facebook logins and even made a shared account. Some shit happened on that fake account that he had almost full part in and he blamed me. He made me message his actual crush and made me write creepy things.
He told her it was all me even though he had a major part as well. Next thing I know, the girl he liked was completely bullying me on both of my facebook accounts that way I wouldn't get away so easily. I was so hurt and so betrayed that next thing I knew I was curled up in a ball on my floor crying my eyes out.