03/03/2015 ; 8:49 pm
I feel like I'm losing everything the more I try to hold on
& all that I've built is falling apart in my hands
but I am trying to salvage the ruins even though they've
crumbled to dust
& is being blown away by the wind
It's irony at its finest
because honey, I know I pushed you away
but I was just trying to save you from the monsters in my head
Instead,
I think I ended up killing us both
It's irony at its finest
because honey, I worked so hard to become better
but I ended up becoming the one thing I was trying not to be
& now,
there is nothing in the world
I hate more than myself
It's irony at its finest
because honey, I was only trying to love those who loved me
but I've realized that all my life has been a lie
& love is nothing but
a deceiving myth
I don't understand why I'm sad;
I lost all I lost because I deserved to lose them
But it twists my heart to see you smile at her
like you used to smile at me
& it twists my heart every time I see myself
& know what I've become
& it twists my heart when I remember
that I am heartless
& I don't know love
― s.m.
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