You Could Be My Mistake

Chapter 19

Lucy's POV:

I woke up in Tyler's bed. I didn't feel his arms around me, he must've got up early. I sit up feeling unsettled. This isn't good. Damn anxiety... I've had anxiety for...my whole life. As I've gotten older it got worse. Just now, I'm a master at hiding it unless it gets to be out of control. I could be having an attack and you'd never know. I was called a freak all through grade school. Junior high, I was laughed at when I ha an anxiety attack which made it worse. High school, I became a pro at hiding it. It's so hard dealing with it when trying to stay calm. I rubbed my face and went into his bathroom and looked in the mirror and sighed. You have NO clue what looking at myself does to me. I hate how I look. If Tyler is my boyfriend...Why would he date me? I turn the shower on and strip down. I step in the shower and sigh as the hot water hits me. I could smell Tyler's scent in shower and smiles. In the hospital, he calmed my anxiety down. Every time he walked in, it was gone. But if I'm in the middle of an attack he wouldn't be able to calm the war in my mind. I started lathering my hair with shampoo.

"Baby Love?"

I heard a familiar voice spoke softly, I opened my eyes and stood still.

"Yes?"

I answered,

"There you are, okay. Hurry and shower, we have to leave in 45 minutes."

"Okay."

Was all I said. I continued washing my hair when the curtain moved, I gasped. I opened the curtain and stuck my head out seeing Tyler smiling. I sent a small smile back.

"What?"

I asked, he stroked my wet cheek making my face heat up.

"Can I have a kiss?"

He asked,

"Why ask?"

I asked, his cheeks turned red also,

"I don't want you to be all like 'why is he kissing me'?"

I giggled, he leaned down and I felt his lips on mine. I got this strange feeling to pull him into the shower with me. He pulled away smiling, I did too.

"I'll be down stairs."

He told me, I nodded. He started leaving then he turned around,

"Before I forget, do you like Sleeping With Sirens?"

He asked, they are only my second favorite band!

"Yes."

I said to him smiling still. He walked over to the iHome and put his phone and plugged it into the speakers.

"Their new album came out and it's pretty good. You can listen to it whilst you're getting ready."

He played the album and I nodded my head to the music. Tyler smiled and left the bathroom. I finished my shower then I stepped out and wrapping my hair in a towel. I dried off and wrapped that towel around me. I let my hair down and combed out my hair. I blow-dried my hair and then heard the song The Strays. I put it on repeat! The song made me smile and dance like an idiot. I was dancing and then I saw a figure in the doorway. I saw Tyler and stopped. He clapped and chuckled,

"That was something, Baby Love."

I blushed,

"We leave in 15 minutes."

I nod as he shakes his head smiling and leaves. I sigh and roll my eyes. I get dressed and then grab his phone and before I head down stairs I look through his phone. What was I in his phone. I looked through his contacts. 😍My Baby Love😍 I looked at it and saw a picture of me smiling. I smile and sit out and go to his pictures. His pictures were like the ones in mine of him and I. Wow...We really must've been so happy. I cam across a picture of me smiling almost looked like I was laughing and Tyler looking at me in a loving way. Another was us kissing. I came across a video of us. I looked around for Tyler then hit play. We were on a couch...They're tour bus! I was straddling him and looking the camera blushing.