Love Me In Silence.

Love Me In Silence. Chapter Six.

Chapter Six (I Caught Fire – The Used)

July 22nd (The evening)

“Heath! Thank you!” I exclaimed throwing my arms around his neck. I now held the same little tiger that had been ripped, but now it was fixed, by the one and only Heath. We had just gotten back from the grave and ate dinner with the rest of them, and it was now 'Go to your room' time.

“I'm just proving I don't want you to forget him.” he said softly. I nodded hugging the tiger to my chest. We were in his room, we both knew I wasn't sleeping without him, so either one of us bothered talking about it. I sat on his bed with a sigh.

“Thank you for not giving up on me.” I whispered to him. He looked at me with concern.

“Why would I give up on you?” he said as if that were something he would've never done. I still don't understand why he didn't give up, and forget about me. I don't know why he wanted me to trust him, or anything. I decided I didn't have to understand, I was just going along with the ride. I simply shrugged. “Lynn, what's wrong?” he said softly sitting beside me. I shook my head. I didn't know what was wrong, I just wasn't in a good mood. I lied down, and he did the same. He sighed, when he knew I wasn't going to talk. But he pulled me to him and held me to his chest, letting me cry into him.

"Sh! You don't have to tell me. It's okay. Everything's gonna be alright." he whispered in my ear lovingly. I carelessly nodded, knowing myself that nothing was going to be okay. Nothing at all. All because of one little person that was silently slipping out of my mind forever, for good. How could I let that happen? I hadn't ever thought that anyone would make him go away, and I was still scared that, that was why Heath was here... to make River go away forever, and never ever come back. I didn't want that, and he knew it. But he did fix the tiger. He just told me not to forget him, and I think that's exactly why I am.

I clung even more to Heath then I was before. I knew he was the one making my best friend go away, but he was also the only one here for me right now. I didn't have anyone but him, and as much as I didn't want to admit this, I knew it was true, I needed him to stay with me, and tell me everything was okay, even though we both know it's not. He was still here to comfort me, and this made me feel a little bit better about everything that was going on.

I looked up at him in a curiously way. His face was completely torn, obvious that he didn't like seeing me this way. This made me know that he really and truly did care about me, and that made me smile. Him seeing me smile, made him smile. And everything was okay, just like he had said. I knew it was okay, but not forever, just for now. Knowing this, I fell fast asleep in Heath's warm embrace.

Heath's POV

I listened to her soft breathing as I held her to my chest. I didn't like her being upset. I wished that I could make everything better for her, but I knew that was something only one person could do, River. Just the thought of his name, I wanted to kick his ass. I didn't know why at first, till I found out that I truly liked Lynn. No, not as a friend, more then that, but I knew that all I could be was a friend, and to be honest, that was good enough for me. I was able to hold her and care for her. As a friend of course.

I know that it wasn't River's fault that she's hurt. The fire wasn't his fault. As much as she loves him, I'm sure that he's looking for her as well. I'm scared of that. Once he comes back, she won't want me, not even as a friend, she'll have River again. She won't need me anymore, but I sure as hell will need her. She's all I have now, but at least she'll be mine for awhile. I just didn't want to lose her, not after I started falling hard for her. I knew she was too busy worrying about River to even consider if she had any feelings for me. All I can hope is that one day she will. It's been only a month, so I only liked her, for all I know my feelings could go away before I could think twice about them. Doubtful, but you never know. Do you?

I honestly don't know if I really want her to remember him. She wants to though, that's why I fixed that silly good for nothing stuffed tiger. I didn't understand, if it were any other girl, I wouldn't have cared. Simply tell them to suck it up and move on. Well, I wouldn't do that to Haley, she deserved the world, if she wanted me to fix anything, I would, not a question asked. Of course I would, I loved her too death. Now she's not here, and I still do anything I can do for her.

I sighed mentally. Time for Heath to get some sleep, I thought. Closing my eyes, I held Lynn closer to me, smiling at the warm I gain from it. Falling fast asleep with the one girl I care about in my arms.

I awoke to the knock on the door. “Shit.” I breathe, as I looked down to see a peacefully sleeping Evelyn. She could not be in my bed when I answered the door. They'd think... I don't even want to know what they would think. Think Heath, something, anything, Aha!, I thought.

“Just a second!” I shouted to the person at the door, whom was most than likely Beth or Jacob. I shook Lynn awake, and covered her mouth, so that she would make no sounds.

“Under the bed, now. Beth or Jacob's at the door.” I whispered in her ear. Her eyes grew wider as she nodded. Crawling under the bed, she was gone.

“Yes?” I asked as I opened the door wide. To find little Kate and Jacob.

“Kate's dying to go to the park 'round the corner, mind taking her?” Jacob pleaded me.

“Sure, no problem, I'll bring a long Ben and Evelyn. You two deserve a break.” I say to him. He looked a little surprised.

“I gotta say Heath, your making this easy for me and Beth, thank you for that.” he says truthfully.

“Well, I'll be on my own here soon, might as well work up some responsibility before than, eh?” I joked with him.

“Guess so, Bud, thanks again.” he said turning on his foot. I nod once and shut the door to get Lynn out of my room, without anyone seeing.

Evelyn was already up and glaring at me as she let tears fall down her beautiful face.

“Your leaving me... soon.” she whispered.

“Lynn don't start. I'll always be there for you. As soon as I graduate, I have to leave, but I won't ever go far away from you, I promise.” I told her.

“But your moving out at eighteen.” she hissed.

“I have to Evelyn. It isn't my choice.” I told her begging her to believe me.

“When?!” She demands.

“December 29.” I breathe, looking up at her through my eyelashes.

That was around five months. Shit, I haven't even starting thinking about that till now. I guess it was job time, eh? I had no clue how I was going to live after this. On top of all this, Lynn was getting pissed. Suddenly something hit me.

Lynn wasn't going to let me in anymore, I was moving out in five months.