Love Me In Silence.

Love Me In Silence. Chapter Five.

Chapter Five (Lucy – Skillet)

July 22nd

I was awake watching Heath sleep. I was silently crying. Last night River had almost left my thoughts, and that was not a good sign. I was really starting to trust Heath, and I didn't want that to happen. I looked at Heath closely. His head lay on my shoulder. His jet black hair completely in his eyes. I could feel one of his hands lay right above my hip holding me to him, since I was lying on my side. Now that I was taking in his appearance, I noticed his wasn't wearing a shirt. My eyes suddenly fell to his arm, to the tattoo. I quickly looked away, I wouldn't want him to get into my personal life, so I decided I wouldn't read it.

“I trust you.” he whispered to me. I gave him a confused look. “You can look, I trust you.” he repeated.

“But...” I breathed. He wasn't making any since, and I didn't even know he was awake. How? I shook my head. “No, I can't. It's not right.” I mumbled. He nodded and dug his face into my neck. He fell fast asleep again.

An hour later I moved slightly to the end of the bed, I was going to get up. I felt him grab my arm.

“Where you going?” he whined. I laughed at him whining. He smiled widely at me.

“I”m starting to love hearing your laugh.” he muttered. My face heated up in a second and I looked away from him. “Look I want to show you something later, if that's okay with you..” he trailed.

“I guess, I have nothing better to do.” I sighed.

“Kay.” he yawned and closed his eyes again.

I walked out of the door and into my room.

I stared out my window, thinking, and worrying. How? How could I have almost forgotten River? The most important person on the planet to me. What was Heath doing to me? A tear slipped down my face. I wouldn't let me slip away, that was the last thing that would happen in my life. I loved him too much, I wasn't letting him go now. Not through all the things we've been through together. Never.

Looking down at the town and smiled. I missed this place, the place where me and River grew up. I couldn't believe that I was here, I didn't think this was real, that it was all a dream and River would be by me when I awoke. I closed my eyes, and toke a deep breathe.

I throw on some jean shorts and a t shirt. Then headed down to the dining room.

Beth and Heath were talking about school, which was coming up soon.

“What are you used to doing, Evelyn?” Beth asked me, but she thought I wouldn't answer, because I never do, but she's nothing like Olivia.

“Olivia homed schooled us.” I muttered. She looked up at me in surprise. I gave her a small smile, and she returned it.

“Well, what do you think of public school?” she asks me. I shrug, and her face falls.

“I mean, I don't know, I'm so used to not talking, I'm sorry.” I whispered. Her told it was alright and we all sat down to eat together again.

Breakfast went by quickly. “Beth, do you mind if me and Evelyn use your car? I wanted to take her around town.” Heath asks. Beth nodded that we could and Heath grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the door, barely giving me time to slip on my shoes. I ripped my hand out of his and went to passenger seat with a sigh.

“Where are we going, Heath?” I demand. He shakes his head, he wasn't going to tell me.

The drive was about half an hour long. We were pulling up to a church... what? I looked at Heath, and he looked as if he was trying to hold back tears. I got out of the car after Heath did.

“What are we going here?” I asked him looking at the cemetery.

“I wanted to show you something.” he whispered, looking away from me.

I walked a few feet behind him. What could he possibly want to show me here? He stopped in front of one of the graves and looked at it. I didn't know if I wanted to look at it. Why had he brought me here? I slowly tried to read the person's name.

'Haley Brooke Parker' was the name I read. That was Heath's last name, and the first name was the name with the tattoo. His little sister. My mouth opened to say something to him. He really did trust me, he wanted to open up to me. His little sister died... I turned to look at him confused. He face was pale, tears slowly making their way down his face. I hugged him. He didn't have to tell me, and he did.

“You didn't have to.” I whispered to him.

“I wanted to.” he mumbled on my head. He hugged me back around the waist.

“How?” I asked, he knew I was talking about his sister.

“I did it. I didn't mean to... but I did. Our parents were fighting, and I was trying to break it up. My dad, he, always had something to hurt my mom with when they fought. This time it was a gun, and he had it out of safety and pointed to to mom. He was going to do, I knew he would, and I hit it away from her. He hit the trigger, and it just so happened to hit Haley.” he whispered as his tears came more rapidly. I gasped, looking back at the grave. She was only ten, and it happened not too long ago.

“Oh Heath.” I breathed. I felt horrible.

“She was the one person I cared about. Just like you and River. Now she's gone.” he mumbled, I knew I wasn't supposed to hear that by how low he had said it. I let go of him and sat down in front of her grave, and Heath sat beside me. I turned and lifted up his shirt and read the cursive writing.

'My one and only Angel.'

I smiled at this, that was really sweet.

“I wish she was here. I miss her.” he whispered. I looked at him, and without even thinking, I toke his hand and held it tight. He gave me a small smile, and squeezed it.

“I bet she misses you too, Heath. I wasn't your fault. You weren't trying to hurt anyone.” I told him softly. He nodded and shrugged.

“But I did.” he sighed and pulled at his hair, which I was now knowing that, that was what he did when he was frustrated. I let us fall in silence he needed to think, and so did I. Maybe he was opening up to me, because he wanted me too, and that was only fair. It's not like he was trying to hurt me, he was trying to care for me. He had no one, and neither did I right now. Maybe that was the right thing to do. I'd have him, and he'd have me. Just friends, he wouldn't take River's place, he said so himself, he wanted his own, and I think I was ready to give him his place in my life. I knew I trusted him already, and obviously he trusted me.

That's when I decided I would give him a chance.