Kissing in Cars

Chapter 13

Chris's POV:

I breathed in, taking in the fresh air as I walked out one of the back doors of the school. It really was a beautiful day, and I was in a beautiful mood because of my beautiful boyfriend. I chuckled at my own cheesiness, but I couldn't help it. I might be in love with him. I mean, I was pretty sure this was how love was supposed to feel. Intense. Painful but in all the best ways. It felt as though my entire chest collapsed every time I heard his name. It felt like he was water and when I went too long without him I was going to die of dehydration.

Isn't that what love feels like?

To be perfectly honest, I had no idea. But what I did know was that what I was feeling was real, and it was kind of terrifying. I haven't left myself so vulnerable and open to someone in so long. But I couldn't help it. When I'm around Matt I had absolutely no control and it was like I was a completely different person.

And maybe that was love, or maybe it was being weak.

But I didn't really care.

"Tell me," a voice behind me said, startling me. I was sitting against the door and when I looked up, my mood instantly went south.

"What do you want, Bones?" I sneered, standing up. I crossed my arms over my chest defensively as he sauntered towards me.

"I was just wondering how life without a car was going for you." The surprised look on my face caused the scar along his cheek to turn up as he smirked.

"You stole my car?" I said, walking towards him now with clenched fists. I had had enough of his bull shit.

"You take one of my toys, I take one of yours," he shrugged. "How is your little boyfriend, by the way?"

My eyes widened, and I instantly try to mask my worry and fear.

"What are you talking about?" I say, trying to keep my voice even.

He rolled his eyes. "Don't try and deny it. You know I have eyes and ears all over this town," he grins and walks closer to me. "I know everything." He whispered. He was trying to intimidate me, to scare me into doing what he wanted. That's how he worked. He made you feel like he practically owned you already. He asserted his authority and control over you and made you feel like you had no choice but to fall a slave to him.

But I knew him just as much as he knew me. I've seen him at his weakest points. I know what makes him tick and I know that most of the time he was bluffing when he was trying to insert fear into people. However it was almost impossible to tell what he was bluffing about. The only suitable strategy in this situation was complete denial.

One thing was for certain, I could not let him have the power of knowing how I felt about Matt.

"If you know so much," I challenged, "then you'd know that Matt doesn't mean anything to me."

"Oh, is that so?" He said with an amused smile. I crossed my arms once more and shrugged.

"Sure he's fun for now, but like you said, he's just a toy and eventually all toys get played out and thrown away," I said with a dismissive wave of my hand. It killed me to say all this about him but it was for his own good. Who knows what Bones would do if he knew I might be in love with him.

"Wow," Bones said thoughtfully bit that amused smirk was still playing on his lips. "Well, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't glad it wasn't serious. That kid is such a little bitch, right?" He laughed and it took everything I had to not punch him in the face. Instead, I just chuckled and played along.

"Yeah he totally ruined my night out the other day. Because of that little shit, I'm banned from the Rams Cave. That was the best club around and he ruined it for me. God I could just strangle the bastard. That's what I get for trying to show the new kid a fun night." Again, I remained silent. He acted as though what he did to Matt was some sort of favor or good deed. He got him completely wasted and he almost got his ass kicked that night. Meanwhile Bones was no where to be found. I tried my hardest to not let my anger make me do something stupid but as he kept talking I began to forget all about my common sense.