Kissing in Cars

Chapter 7

Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god, I kept repeating to myself as I walked to my next class after lunch. I almost kissed Chris. Chris. Just the thought alone raised so many questions in my mind. Did this mean that he was possibly gay? Did he have feelings for me? Did I have feelings for him?! Whenever I saw him, my heart would start pounding and my breathing would falter but I haven't felt that way since......... he who shall not be named. And I ended up getting my heart broken last time. Would it really be a good idea to get into something so soon? And with someone like Chris? Granted, he did say he was trying to change for me, however the million dollar question still stands: can people really change? I supposed the fact that he was trying was enough, considering that it was more than he-shall-not-be-named ever did.

I was so busy with my thoughts I didn't see the body coming full force toward me until I had already crashed into it.

"Watch where you're going!" I female voice screeched and I looked up to see that I had bumped into Eve Mayer, the most intimidating, intelligent and talented girl in school. Her name was famous over all the grades being that she was the school student body president and she always graduated with the highest GPA in the grade. From what Amanda's told me, everyone either feared her or wanted to be her, or both. Unless you were the majority of the male population who wanted to get in her pants.

She flipped her long wavy blonde hair furiously and glared at me with icy blue eyes. She had a baby face but she was plenty fierce and could ruin you in an instant.

"I'm so sorry. I'll be more careful," I said quickly then scurried past her and into the band room. I gave Amanda a quick smile, then sat in my section and began assembling my instrument. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Eve stroll over to the flute section and sit next to Amanda and immediately they erupted in conversation. I would never understand how that friendship worked considering I thought that Eve was practically the definition of everything Amanda stood against in life. They laughed loudly and I looked away, still perplexed but accepting it. I avoided everyone's gaze as they walked in and I was nervous that people would see right through me and knew what I had done just a period before. Feeling guilty was probably silly but I couldn't help the feeling that I did something wrong, forbidden.

The class went by as usual and I shrank away with the crowd as usual, going unnoticed. There were definitely perks of being invisible and I liked it much better than middle school where I was the center of attention and everyone was constantly looking for my flaws. When the period ended I quietly packed up my things and was almost out of the classroom when Amanda stopped me.

"Hey," she said falling into step with me.

"Hi," I replied and she chuckled.

"Okay, what's up with you?" She asked and I looked at her, confused. However on the inside I was quietly panicking. Oh no, I thought, she knew. She could see right through me. Was I that obvious?

"What do you mean?" I asked nervously.

"I mean ever since you came back from talking with Chris you haven't stopped smiling." Was that true? My cheeks instantly started heating up.

"That's not true," I denied her statement and she gave me a disbelieving look.

"Oh come on, I know something happened!" she accused. Nervously, I tried to deny her again but it came out as stutters. Her eyes widened.

"Oh my god something did happen! What?!"

Unable to form legible words, I simply shook my head. I wasn't even sure what happened myself so I definitely wasn't gonna go around telling people. Did we kiss? Not exactly. Something did happen between us though and I think I liked it. But for now, I would keep it a secret. Amanda rolled her eyes in frustration.