Kissing in Cars

Chapter 4

"Matt, please don't walk away from me. Just let me explain, please!" I could hear Chris pleading with me but I didn't care. He was just like him, I repeated in my head over and over, he's just like him.

I wasn't really sure where I was going. I just needed to get away from him. Tears had already began to spill as I ran through the winding halls. I could feel him gaining on me, could hear his breath coming closer as he begged for me to stop but I never did. Eventually, however, he caught up.

He sprinted ahead and stopped directly in front of me, putting his hands on my chest.

"Stop," he said firmly but I smacked away his hands.

"Don't touch me!" I screamed pushing him away. He held up his hands in surrender but I didn't stop. "Don't. Fucking. Touch. Me!"

"Okay okay. Just calm down. Please."

"No, I can't calm down! You're just like him! I hate you!" I screamed, tears streaming down my face. I felt a twinge of guilt when I saw the hurt look in his eyes but it was soon clouded by my anger.

"You don't mean that," he whispered and I nodded.

"Yes I do! I fucking hate you and assholes like you. You're all the same! You're all like him!"

"Who is he?" he asked softly but I wasn't having any of it.

"He's just like you," I sobbed. "He hurt people. He hurt me. So bad. He cheated and he lied and his heart was just as fucking ice cold as yours is. He took advantage of people then when the time came he left them for fucking dead."

"Matt," Chris said trying to get close enough to hold me but I pushed him away.

"And do you wanna know what the worst part was?" I trembled. I was half aware of how much I was opening up when I swore that I wouldn't but once I started I couldn't stop. "The worst part was that I made the idiot mistake of falling in love with the asshole." There, I said it.

Chris looked at me in confusion but I just vigorously shook my head.

"No. Not again. I am not making that mistake again."

"Matt, please. Just let me-"

"No!" I interrupted. I couldn't handle this anymore. "Just...... Just stay away from me." I almost took it all back when I saw the look of complete devestation on Chris's face. But I didn't. I couldn't. Instead I pushed past him and walked away, again not knowing where I was going. When he didn't follow me I let out a relieved, yet shaky breath.

Soon I found a bathroom and was relieved to find it empty. I walked up to one of the sinks, turning it on and splashing the cool water on my face to calm me down.

That was intense. It was only my first day and I was already having mental breakdowns.

Looking up in the mirror I almost screamed when I saw a guy behind me with his arms crossed leaning against one of the stalls.

"Oops, did I scare you?" he asked with an amused smile. He looked intimidating, with gelled jet black hair and piercing grey eyes.

"Yeah, you did. Now if you don't mind I'd like to be alone right now."

"Oh, don't mind me. It's just that, well, duty calls," he said motioning to the urinals on the other side if the room. I waved my hand, giving him the go ahead and he walked over to one.

"So what's got you so down?" he called out and I sighed.

"I'm just not a fan of people right now."