Enigma

14

Kanina pa ako naka titig sa salamin, I look at the time, and it's been an hour past by, hindi ko magawang ilakad ang sarili sa kanya dahil parang pag mag dikit lang ang aming katawan ay hindi ko na magawang layuan.

The familiarities, the sensual, his presense the ambience, when it comes to him it feel so right, safe and good at the same time, that I want to stay forever—the heck am I thinking!!! You don't know him Jay!!!

I look at my pajama in the big mirror I am looking at right now, it's color ash gray, shorts with pocket and comfortable top, Alisa choose this for me, I don't know for what special reasons but I kinda love it. Talking about Alisa, I promise her that I'll explain things to her after class, gosh pagkatapos kong humingi nang tulong, hindi ko manlang nasabi ang rason, I look at the mirror again and sigh “College is really exhausting” I whisper.

Lumabas na ako nang kwarto, and I look at the left side of the hall way, I found the black chocolate door in the end of it, I ready my self  before walking to its direction and knock—but no one answer, I knock again for the second time and third—but it feels like there is nobody in there, I sigh as its starting to get on my nerves so I decide to open it, but someone grab my shoulder—and I'm freezed to death.

Hindi ako maka galaw, how come there is another person in this house and the least I know, I did not feel its pressense

“What are you doin' here? Jay?” it's deep, but I know whose deep voice it is coming from

“I-I-I'm just curious” I said, maikli ngunit pinilit kong hindi mautal, dahan-dahan akong tumalikod at humarap sa kanya, naka ngiti ko syang tinignan habang ang mukha niya ay blangko, hindi ko alam kung ano ang iniisip niya sa lagay na'to, hindi ba sila close nang ate niya, hindi ba sila nag chi-chika na alam kona kung sino ang nandito sa kwarto na'to—pero kung alam niya hindi naman niya ako tatanungin... In this game, I guess it's better to play dumb.

“Curious about what?” tanong niya, hindi ako makapag salita tila nag tago ang dila ko sa dulo nang lalamunan ko, I can't say a thing I feel like I'm just going to mess-up things. My anxiety is kicking in, Ican't stop my foot for patting the ground, my sweat is cold, nanlalamig ang buo kong katawan—fuck, I know I'm not good at lying, but still I should know how to answer things gosh!

“this is a forbidden room in this house, aren't you aware about it?” he ask me again, and that's it.

“That's what I'm curious, why is it forbidden? Are you guys hidden something?” laban ko, yeah I need to play dumb, right here, right now.

“I don't know, only ate Sandra and my parents know something, and since the only left is me and ate tapos busy and cold pa si ate, she is one of the monarch so yeah wala akong alam, but one thing I know for sure its dangerous, kapag lumalapit ako dito I don't feel any presense but my gut telling me there is danger whithin this door, and I always trust my gut” he calm and explain binawi na din niya ang kamay, so it explain why—they can't feel the presense of king Poenix beside they feel danger a dark atmosphere.

So this is the power of a king, hindi mo panga nakikita natatakot kana, his aura is something.

“So never kanang pumunta dito okay, sometimes its better to not follow our curiousity, for our own safety” dag-dag niya pa at tumango naman ako, dahan-dahan kaming bumalik sa paglalakad patungo sa kwarto ko

“You know what, I don't know if it just because I'm an alpha that's why there is a magnet that pulling me in that door as if my life depends on it, I don't know—the feeling of being called or even being swear of, feels good” he said and start walking to his room, I think I know what it he talking like, but I've never feel it—neither on him, 'cause when I'm with Poenix na minsan ay mas malapit pa kaysa sa kanila, I feel safe, comfortable and feel like I'm more superior, so what kuya Iver said, I know what he mean but I've never feel it—at least on him, I doesn't feel it at all.