I Hope One Day (Nouis boyxboy)

Chapter11:

Hey sweeties, 

Chapter eleven, I'm so sorry for the long wait been busy with myself. I hope you like it and please let me know what you think!! :) 

Dedication goes to @Kmy_leprovost :) 

XoxoxDebje

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It's been a week after the incident and I hadn't been doing good at all. I havn't been to school or home for more than once. I only went home to get myself some new closhe and stuff to stay at Harry's place. Harry called my mom to explain what happened but didn't mentioned the fact I got raped. He said to her he would take me to London to met Louis. Mom had been happy for me and told Harry to take good care of me. 

I didn't feel happiness or sadness, I felt emptiness. Like I was in a chock and I couldn't move or speak. Harry was sweet and nice, he didn't presure me to talk but he would hold me when I needed it. He let me help him in the shop whenever I wanted to. We worked on my song everyday after we closed the shop. I thanked him everyday for letting me stay with him and being a good friend. He would laugh and let me it wasn't a big of a problem. 

But today, today I felt exshauted but excited. I woke up at a happy voice who told me to wake up. When I opened my eyes I was met with a cheeky just shower smile. 'Morning Nialler', he said sat a cup of tea on the nightstand. 'Morning Harry', I said croaky sitting up. 'You ready for today', Harry ask when we eat breakfast. Harry always made pancakes in the morning, I loved it and it was nice but I never ate much. I nodded swallowed my foor, 'Yes, you happy to see Nick again?'. Harry smiled not being able to hold his blush. 'I've missed him', he said just beraly above a whisper. I placed a hand on his shoulder, 'I'm sure he missed you too'. He nodded and stood up to wash our dishes. 

I helped Harry packing his bags seeing my stuff was still into bags. We laughed about how I should react when I saw Louis for the first time. I haven't thought about have a should great him, should I just give him a hug or wait till he hugs me, maybe I should kiss him or should that be too soon. 'Don't worry about it Niall, it will come itself', Harry said noticing my worried look. I nodded finished him backing his last stuff. I made a joke about him and Nick kissing the shit outta eachother and we laughing clunching our stomachs and tears on our cheeks. When we finsihed Harry when downstairs to open the shop and I stepped into the shower.

I relax a bit but felt exshauted at the same time. Stress took over when I saw the scars on my arm, three. I couldn't help but feel the need to add more, more till I stopped bleeding. Words Sam said, pain Sam gived, Rape. I couldn't think staight while I looke through the cabins, razor. Pain, blood and tears. I watched blood drupping down my arms mixed up with water. I breath in deep trying everything to not pass out. I washed my body and hair, turned of the tub and dried myself. I weakly but fasted reached for the bandaid and wrapped my bloody arm. 

I changed in some baggy brown trousers and a long sleeve grey shirt. Putting on my vans I walked downstairs met with a smiling Harry. I smiled back but something changed when I walked up to him. His eyes narrowed and his just full on smiling face fall, just like he could feel what I'd been doing. I know he'd find out about my three scars when he'd found me, but we haven't talked about it. 'You okay Niall?', he ask and just as I wanted to reply with a simply 'I'm fine' the door opened and clients walked in. 'We'll talk later', Harry said sternly, I could only nod before I went over to help some of the clients. Luckely the clients kept going which kept us busy for the rest of the day. Harry didn't stop giving me knowing looks and it kind of made me freak out. I didn't want to talk, not to Harry not to anyone. Not that Harry wouldn't understand or judge me, but I really just didn't feel like talking. 

Harry waved the last two clients goodbye and sighed while he closed the doors. 'Pretty busy', He said when he turned back. I just nodded not trusting me voice. Harry walked up to me with a small smile which made my inside rease more and my hands started to sweat. 'Why I'm so stupid', I thought. Suddenly I felt two strong arms wrapped around me, 'Don't worry Niall'. Without noticing I hide my face in the crock of his neck and let all my emotions flood. 'I'm so scared', I stuttered not knowing what else to say. 'It's okay Niall, we will be on that plane in an hour and you will be in Louis's arms in two', he said whipping away my tears. I chuckled and nodded, knowing I would get to say Louis, soon.