The Diary of a Pretty Lady

Chapter 20

"What the hell are you doing" Jonas says while pushing Matt away from me. He looks furious, and I can't even blame him.

"It's nothing man, we were just talking and I asked her for my dance, so that's what you saw." Matt answer, holding his hands up. Trying to convince Jonas that it really was nothing to worry about.

"Why the hell do I have to walk all the way up here o find you dancing?" Jonas turns to me now. I haven't said a word and honestly I have no idea what I can say to make it better.

I see the anger in Jonas' eyes and all I want to do is cry. He's so good to me and while I didn't do anything wrong I can feel the distance between us.

"I was just sitting here because this is my favorite place in the backyard. And then matt found me. That's all, I swear." I take a step closer to Jonas and fortunately he doesn't take a step back. I can see he believes me or he wants to believe me.

"I think I better go. Jonas man, I promise I was just dancing with her. I would never betray you." Matt says to Jonas.

Jonas just nods again and turns back at me while Matt walks back to the party.

"I'm sorry Sam. I really am." He immediately takes my hands in his and leads me to the little bench. I'm astonished, why the hell does he have to say sorry? He didn't do anything wrong.

"Why are you saying sorry?" I ask him in disbelieve.

"Because I'm just so jealous. You are so incredibly beautiful to me. It's hard to hear other guys talking to you. And then there's Matt. I just don't know about him. I do trust you and I trust him but I can see it in his eyes. He looks at you differently." He finishes starring at his shoes.

I reach out and take his cheeks between my hands and turn his head a little so he's now facing me. "I don't care how anyone looks at me but you." I tell him firmly. I don't know that that is the truth or not. I do care about Matt. I just don' know till what extend I care about him.

"I really like you Sam. It's selfish of me but I want you all to myself." He grins at me. It's pretty dark outside but I think I saw a little blush forming on his cheeks.

"Don't worry I'm all yours." I tell him, looking in his eyes. I can feel the butterflies going berserk in my stomach. I want to say tell him how I really feel about him.

"Jonas, I-i...-" His eyes are glistering with something but I don't know what it is. Hope perhaps?

"I-I really do like you too." I manage to choke out. I don't know what happened. Why can't I tell him that I love him. That I want to be with him in every loving way possible. Why did I choke?

Before he notices that there's something wrong I jump up from the bench and grab his hand. "Come on, did you forget that we're actually at a kick-ass party some awesome chick invited you to." I laugh, trying to change the subject.

"Oh really, I heard it was her awesome twin brother that did all the work." He winks at me, following me over the little bridge, leaving the pond and the magical place behind us.

We talked and laughed and kissed while on our way back to the party. And let me tell you, the party went from great to incredible. The house is packed with all dressed up teenagers who were just having fun. I do think I should make it my job.

The weekend went by fast, Saturday afternoon Jonas came over and we watched movies and talked all day till late at night. And Sunday we went to the park, just strolling around eating ice cream and talked more. The more I'm with him the deeper I fall in love. It's just every single thing he does is so darn cute. He makes me laugh a lot and he always tells me that I'm beautiful. But Saturday nor Sunday I told him that I love him.

There's just something that is holding me back and I have no clue what it is. Normally I would talk to Finn about this but we're still fighting. And Lena was in Calabasas for the weekend visiting her favorite aunt and cousins.

Arriving at school on Monday , I slowly walk to my locker. Monday is such an awful day. It's not that I hate school but it's more that I hate the waking up so early. Being a little grumpy I throw open my locker, grabbing my history books and slam the little door shut. Turning around I see a thing that pains my heart but I have no idea why it pains me.

It's Matt laughing with a pretty junior. I forgot her name. but the thing that strikes me the most is his arm. His arm is wrapped around her waste in a boyfriend/girlfriend kind of way. Is he dating her? How? Why? I thought he was happy single.

Trying to hide my shock I turn around and walk to class fast.

When all classes of the day ended I walk out of school. Lena wants to go study in the library for a science test, she can't study at home because her mom is rebuilding almost everything so you can't have any peace and quiet at hers. I offered to study at mine but she rejected it.

Trying to remember where I parked my car I feel a tap on my right shoulder. Turning around is see Matt standing there with a big grin on his face.

"Oh hey Matt, everything alright?" I ask him.

"Yeah I'm better than alright. I just wanted to tell you that you have nothing to be worried about." He tells me. Nothing to worry about? What is he talking about? "I didn't know we had a problem or anything." I voice my thoughts.

"No we haven't but I saw the look on Jonas' face, he wasn't happy about our little dance. And I just want to say you can sleep on both ears. I don't have any feeling for you but friendly. And I have girlfriend now." He enlightens me.

"I saw you two earlier, how did that happen?"

"Oh just last year we flirted a bit but that kind of flew out the window when y-" he suddenly stops his explanation. When I look at him directly he continuous. "When the new school year began. And now you're party did the trick, I kissed her and we went out Saturday." He smiles.

"Wow and you're girlfriend and boyfriend already. You must really like her huh." I giggle a bit. "Yeah I do" He admits dreamingly. "But don't worry Sam, you always will be my favorite girl." He laughs and stomps my shoulder lightly.

"I do love you the most as a friend." He smiles. I think my heart stopped for a solid two seconds with the hearing of the three most precious words in mankind. But I compose myself and laugh with him.

"I love you too silly." I say while embracing him in a tight hug. Glad it's all clear now.

But little did I know that was the moment Jonas was standing behind me trying to surprise me with a single red rose. But when I told Matt the three precious words he slouched his shoulders and walked back to his car without saying a thing.

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