Power Play (BTS FF)

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Liam

Two months...

Two months since Ashley and I started our relationship. Which was all physical with no emotional attachment.. from her side at least. I don't even know when I got this addicted to this. To her.

I visit her once or twice every week. Mostly making excuses related to Aurora's wedding preparations. We would do whatever we want behind the closed doors but once we're outside. It's cold and professional between us. No glimpse of her forbidden wild persona that only I get to witness in her room.

But as much as it felt good.. it felt wrong. Very, deeply wrong. It felt like as much as we got close, physically.. she was going away.. I could feel her slipping away.. the kisses being less and less meaningful each time until it just felt a cold pair of lips being pressed against mine making me realise what the fuck I have been doing all along.

I had turned my love into.. this. This ugly arrangement of lust. I was proving her right all along. I have already proven to her that I just want her body and I'll be sated. Oh fuck!

Ashley looked at me startled as I suddenly pulled back mid-kiss. This was a first and she clearly looked kinda offended.

Liam : I.. I don't..

Ashley : oh okay.

She nodded and started fixing her hair and make-up without looking back at me or asking anything else as if.. as if it didn't even matter. Anything. As if it was just this.. which it was.

Liam : Ashley, I need to talk to you.

Ashley : we are talking. Go ahead.

She said as she reapplied her lipstick making me sigh deeply.

Liam : Ashley, look at me. It's.. about us.

I said hesitantly and she turned around before gesturing to the other couch as she sat on one. As I sat down, she looked at me silently, waiting for me to speak. I took a deep breath and looked down as I broke the silence.

Liam : I'm sorry.

There was pin drop silence for a long minute before she spoke.

Ashley : that's.. all? For what?

Her tone was laced with genuine curiosity.

Liam : I know it's too late and.. I don't even know If I can ever fix it all back to normal but.. this arrangement between us.. I shouldn't have said yes to it. It's like.. I proved your trust issues right like.. like I just wanted you for... Your body.

I said quietly, my head bowed with shame and regret that was eating me from inside. I glanced at her a minute later when she didn't speak anything and she was just staring at me quietly.

Liam : I don't.. I mean.. I didn't mean for you to feel that at all.. I really, truly love you and.. I swear I won't even touch you until the end if that's what it takes to prove my word. Please.. say something. Anything..?

My heart was beating really fast as I saw her lips part to speak something but then she sighed and nodded.

Ashley : so.. the arrangement ends here, right?

She asked calmly as if I didn't even say anything just now at all.

Liam : Ashley-

Ashley : fine with me. See you later at the wedding then, Prince Liam.

She said and smiled that fake aristocratic smile at me as she made her way out and I was frozen seeing her so casual attitude but I snapped back to my senses just as she was about to reach the door.

Liam : wait!

She halted and turned back slightly. Her expressions unreadable making me more nervous. But I forced the words out anyways. I needed clearance.

Liam : is this all over..? You.. do you still not feel anything.. about me?

The silence filled the void between us until it didn't. My whole world came crashing down as she spoke. Just a single cold word. But enough to break me completely.

Ashley : No.

She stared at me for a moment, expecting me to speak probably but I was too heartbroken to speak and I didn't trust myself to not burst out crying right now.

Ashley : and I expect this stays between us. And it's better if you just.. forget it. Everything. And me. I've made myself clear since Day-1, haven't I? But.. well take care.

She just nodded and left, not even bothering to look back and I waited until her steps went away before I let myself break down. I could only regret it all.

Even if she made it clear, I couldn't help but think it would've had a different outcome if only I refused her offer two months ago. And I didn't. So this is what I deserve.

I can never have her. Never. And this knowledge only kills me more inside. But there was something else that I felt whenever I was with her.. something dark.. and powerful. The energy radiating off of her felt more and more charged with negativity.

As much as I was comfortable in dwelling in my pain and crying till the world ends. I know she is hiding something. Something that is much, much bigger than this relationship drama I have. What is it? I need to know.

To be continued
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