Bring Me Back to You

VI

Pj's POV:

I did it. I actually put my best friend in a rehab center. Last night was torture and even though I just woke up, I already want to just curl up into a ball and cry. But I have to be strong. I have a life, and I have a job, I have fans that I can't let down. Well, I guess now I never have to even think about Chris again...

I decide to go get the mail because I haven't checked it within the past few days. Opening the mail box I notice a cream color envelope with the apartment building's name written in green ink across the top. Rent for the month. Fuck me. I'm not going to be able to afford this on my own, I may be a Youtuber and content creator, but I actually don't make that great of money at all.

I would normally split the rent bill with Chris. Guess that's not happening this month. Well, I guess that means, I guess it's time for a new roommate. Maybe I should put an add in the paper? They say it's only a couple pounds. Luckily, I have two more weeks before I have to pay the bill. Although, I still have tons of other bills, most that I used to split with Chris. From the electricity bill, to the heat and air conditioning, to the cable, Internet and home phone, and weekly grocery bills, paying those alone, along with my cell phone bill, I'm going to go broke. And honestly, I was going broke playing half, with Chris. Without him, I'll just be sinking deeper and deeper into a hole...

I should get on that then, the advertisement, well right after a cup of tea. I need to come up with something creative to draw more creative type people in. What the hell would it say though? I like drawing, You like drawing. Want to move in?. Oh God no, Pj, you dumb ass, you're an idiot... no.

I think I will just go with something simple. Roommate needed then my number. Yeah, that should be just fine. I don't want to put the address because I know some of my fans are stalkers and will probably kidnap me in my sleep.

I wash my mug in the sink and make my way into the office. I seat myself and bring up the newspapers website and click on the tab for adverts.  I type in my simple, sad, and not at all creative advert:

"Looking for a flat roommate. Reasonable rent price, call Pj at..." I type in my number and submit it. After I finish that, I just need to fill out the three computer pages of PayPal paperwork, for the cost of the cheap advert.

It's not even ten pounds yet I need all this paperwork to secure the payment. That's crazy. I probably should have made life easier on myself and just simply gone to the newspaper company's office and filled all this out in person. Of course I only think about that after the fact, though. I sigh as I finally finish off my stupid paperwork exit the program.

Getting up I feel a sense of loss hit me. I listen closely to the silence of the house. It was a lonely, cold, and dreary silence though. I look towards Chris' old bedroom and bite my lip. I suppose this is a sense of grief, or maybe it's even a sense of regret. Possibly a mix of both, but all I know is that I miss him already.

No, I can't miss him. I am going to have a new roommate soon. Maybe he and I will become best friends, and I'll just end up forgetting Chris completely. That wouldn't be wrong, right? The doctors did say that I'm not supposed to be in contact with him....

I'm sure that once I get a call and have them move in, I hopefully won't feel this at all. Well, I at least hope I don't feel this pain. The newspaper for tomorrow should have my advertisement and maybe I will get calls within the day it is posted.

For today though, I am just going to draw, watch Netflix, and drink my weight in tea. Unlike Chris I do not need booze to drown my sorrows. Wow, I sound like an asshole when I say that. I don't even know what exactly Chris is going through, so I guess I don't have the right to speak about him badly. It's very unlike me anyways, I'm just agitated with him still... I think.

I plop down on the couch and grab my remote. Watching Netflix will keep me away from my very confusing thoughts. Spirited away will be my distraction for now. Certain parts of the movie remind me of Chris which for some odd reason is making me get teary eyed. I know he would love this movie... What the hell is with me today?

Christ, am I pregnant and having mood swings for fuck's sake?

I let out an aggressive sigh which closely resembles a growl. It makes me smile though, my mind goes to all these creative places only I can imagine with bunnies that make the same noise I just released from my lips. Where the trees have tie-dye bark with plastic leaves. Where the grass is a deep greenish-blue. The sky is the same sea foam color as my eyes.

This is my escape, when reality becomes to much I can close my eyes and run around freely and happily in my own problem free word. There is just one issue though, in this world I am not alone. Chris has always been in my world since we met. You can't have a perfect world without your best friend, right? But oddly enough, Phil and Dan have never been in this world. Only Chris, but I guess the two of us just have always been closer, right?

I can't have him here anymore though, he only makes me upset lately. I can't make him go away though. Oh well, I will just have to ignore the fact that he exists in this world. Maybe just maybe, I will be able to feel better in a world without him.

A/N: Hello everyone! Lexi wrote this chapter today which is mostly just Peej struggling with adult stuff. Wow, that sounded so much better in my head. I should probably just go now, but first! If you guys came from our Instagram page and have the ability to comment or vote, let us know down in the comments below or send us a direct message! And if you're not, (Shameless self promotion from Katy!) then you should follow them! Lexi's fanpage is @/phantabulousphan, Katy's is @/_OutsidersObsessed_, and the fanpage that we share is @/PjIsMine_DontTouchHim!
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