The Light to My Darkness boyxboy

Chapter Three: Lunch Hour (note at end)

The Light to My Darkness

Chapter Three: Lunch Hour (With IMPORTANT note at the end of chapter)

Recap of Chapter Two

Danes' POV.

I return to the floor with two bags of food from one of the local sub shops that are in the city. I go and knock as softly as I can, but my excitement getting the best of me. I hear a faint "Come in." I slip into the room to see him working on some paperwork. He doesn't look up for a while, which is fine with me, I get to stare at him more. But when he does I see that the little color he has on is face is drained and he freezes for a moment. He is even more beautiful close up. So before he can speak I walk up to the chair closest to his desk and placed the subs down while sitting down myself. I give him a huge grin and say "Hey I got you lunch."

He looked at me like I have five heads while I just sit there with my shit eating grin plastered on my face.

Remi's POV

Dane sits across from me while explaining that he brought food for each of us. Although my body is excited to be this close to the sex god himself, my mind is freaking out. Who is he to tell me that I get food? Can't he see how disgustingly fat and ugly I am? Why would he want me to be even fatter than I am right now? The thoughts in my head where swirling and they didn't want to stop. I could feel my body trying to now launch itself into a panic attack, with the help of my mind. I started to take deep discreet breaths, so I wouldn't freak out Dane. After a while my hands where the only thing shaking, which was pretty normal for me. I feel eyes looking at me and I glance to see Dane's deep green eyes looking at me with concern. "I asked if you were going to eat." He said once again after I gave him a questioning look.

I look at the sandwich that he got for me sitting on my desktop. I would be rude not to eat it. Plus I really don't want or need him looking out for me so I nod my head slightly and began to start the horrific task of eating. I unwrap the sandwich and take a small bite. It seems to slide down my throat so slow it feels like slime. Almost like I could feel all the fat transferring into my body, gathering onto the already huge layers of fat that create my body. "Thank you for the sandwich Dane." I say when the soggy bite finally is clear from my airway.

He smiles at me, unaware of the internal struggle I am submitting myself to. "Hey no problem man, we should do this again. You seem pretty cool. Plus having friends doesn't hurt anyone right?" He says continuing the conversation. I manage to fake a small smile to show that I'm listening. "So tell me about yourself Remi." He stated.

I looked at him curiously, nobody has ever cared enough to want to hear me talk, much less about myself. I clear my throat awkwardly and quietly speak, surprising him and myself that I actually responded. "Well my name is Remi, I turned 26 yesterday. I'm the youngest in my family and I like rivers." I blush madly at the word vomit that I just produced. I like rivers really? That's all I had to say about myself. If he didn't think I was socially retarded, then he definitely will now.

I hear a light chuckle as I see him beginning to laugh at me. I wish that I would be swallowed by the earth, struck by lightning, anything to shut myself up from sounding as stupid as I look. My face burns a bright crimson as I face my eyes towards my lap. Why do you always fuck up, huh? Can't be normal for even a second. So pathetic.

Pathetic.

My eyes begin to water as that word echos around my head. My hands begin to shake, and I swiftly clutch my eyes close. I take deep breaths to keep the incoming panic attack at bay. After a few moments of doing so, I grow annoyed at myself. Even after all the work I have done to forget Them, one word can make it all rush back within one second. But to be honest, it's not just a word, it is the definition of my person. Along with some other words but that was the favorite. I felt what little control I had over my fragile mental stage slipping. Feeling slight panic over possibility of being back into even more chaos I tried to focus all my thoughts on calming my panic.