Blue Eyed Beast |MGK|

Happy

"Let's be happy, babe let's finally be happy. If we're going to do this whole marriage thing, we need to try a lot harder than we have been. This is a huge responsibility for the both of us and it's nothing to play around with. No more stupid drama." Tabitha whispered in Colson's ear as they laid on the beach while Casie built a sand castle not too far away.

After the sudden marriage, Tabitha, Casie and Colson ran away to the Bahamas for some family time. Colson knew that Tabitha had become depressed and he wasn't going to let that slip through the cracks. He knew that it was time for him to settle down and man up for his wife and daughter.

He just wanted his girls to be happy, and Colson will do anything to make that happen.

"We'll get there baby, I promise. I'm not gonna lie, it's going to take some work though." Colson replied.

"I can make you guys happy!" Casie screamed.

Tabitha laughed. "You already make me happy boo."

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Tabitha POV

I wish being happy was easier done than said; I've been in a deep depression for some time and I have done my best to cover it up. But covering up the mess doesn't make it better, it only makes it worse with time.

I never want to bother Colson with how I'm truly feeling so I write in a journal instead, one that I've kept for years. I guess you can call it my therapy, I can leave all of my thoughts in the page without it judging me.

I do feel bad about keeping my husband in the dark about all of this but he has his own demons to fight so why would I put the burden of my demons on him also?

I sighed and picked up my phone and logged into Instagram, which is not the best idea because my notifications were full of hate, jealousy and negativity. People don't want to see the man they're obsessed with, with another woman; they're holding out hope that he'll fall in love with them. That false hope fuels their anger and they unfortunately take it out on me.

I decided to show everyone that I'm living my life regardless of what they comment. Scrolling through my camera roll, I posted a picture of me, Colson and Casie at the beach earlier.

"You can say what you want about me, but this is real, this is my family. This is forever." 

Comments:

Okay sure, go ahead and flaunt your marriage in our faces. Bitch.

Lol it won't last, I mean do you even KNOW who he is? 😂😂😂

Lmao what kind of magic did you use to trap him like that 😬

Uh nah girl, that's my man 💁🏽

I rolled my eyes and threw my phone at the wall as hard as I could. I thought that would make me feel better but it made things so much worse.

"Fuck" I screamed, hot tears rolling down my cheeks.

I punched the nearest hard surface near me which just so happened to be a low hanging mirror on the wall.

Glass went everywhere and blood trickled down my arm but I was so angry, I couldn't feel the physical pain, but the emotional pain was swallowing me whole.

I sat on my knees and ran my bloody fingers through my hair, feeling like such a fuck up.

I hear Colson's loud footsteps run into the room. "Baby, what the fuck?" He rushed to my side. After that, my ears blurred out every word he was saying. All I could hear were his screams to get my attention while he held me.

"Tabitha, baby...you can hear me right?"

I snapped out of it and nodded, afraid to speak. Afraid to look into his eyes and see disappointment.

Before I knew it, Colson had our emergency first aid kit in his hands.

"What happened?" He sighed, wiping the blood off of my skin.

"Everything. All at once." I whispered, looking at the ground, still refusing to make eye contact with him.

"Tabitha." He spoke softly, putting his hand under my chin to lift my head up to eye level.

Our eyes finally met and his baby blues were filled with sadness. "What. Happened?"

"I idiotically posted a picture of us in Instagram and the amount of hate I got was disgusting. It made me feel like I'm doing something wrong by being with you."

"There will ALWAYS be someone behind a keyboard to hate on everything you do. Me, you and Casie are a packaged deal so unfortunately you guys experience the negative side of my career as well. Don't give it a second thought because at the end of the day I love you more than any woman out there and there's nothing anyone else can do about it. I hate to see you like this, I really do. Please stay strong ...for me and Casie?" He spoke with such conviction and emotion, I could tell that this was breaking his heart.

"I'll try." I sniffles as he finished bandaging my hand.

"That's all I ask." He lightly smiled at me and kissed my lips.

Before he could pull away, I grabbed his neck and forced our lips back together, wanting the sparks to keep flowing.

I pulled away again and placed each leg on his sides and pressed myself into him. I gave him a small kiss and wrapped my arms around him. He ran his rough hands up my back. I leaned my head back, letting my hair fall down, and sighed. Colson placed a soft kiss on my collar bones and kissed across my shoulder to the base of my neck and slowly dragged his tongue up the side of my neck. I bit my lip and let out a small moan.

He puts his hands on my waist and runs them slowly down my sides. I reach for the hem of my tank top and peel it off my warm skin. I reach behind my back and unhook my bra and let it fall to the hardwood floor. Colson looks up at me and unbuttons my shorts. He easily pulls them down and they hit the floor around my ankles. His big hands were resting on the curve of my ass as he squeezed it. The corners of his mouth curved upwards. He embraced me in his arms, kissing me as passionately as he could in that moment. I stopped kissing him and rested my forehead against his.

"I love you." I whispered.

"And I love you."

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