The Risks of Love (Markiplier x Reader)

Chapter Twenty-Three - Don't Go

Mark's POV

My heart could not pound any harder. I stood in front of the hospital door, starring into the building. I am scared out of my mind. I took a deep breath and walked in. The woman at the front desk looked up from her desktop. "May I help you sir?" She asked me politely. "Yes, I am here to see my girlfriend," I said nervously. "Of course!" She said joyfully, "Whats her name?" I took a deep breath. "(F/N (L/N)," I said biting the inside of my lip. "Oh," She said, less joyfully. "Floor three, room 182. You are gonna have to wait in the waiting room though. She isn't out of surgery yet." I lightly bit my tongue at the word surgery. "What is she in surgery for?" I asked quietly. "She stabbed herself multiple times in the stomach and she also overdosed on morphine," she said quietly back. "But I am not really suppose to give that information away, its classified." I covered my mouth with shock. "Thank you, ma'am," I said letting a tear role down my cheek as I walked away from the desk and quickly ran for the elevators. As my elevator made it to the third floor, I began to walk over to the waiting room slowly. I held my stomach, thinking about what happened. It makes me sick to think about how I could be such a sick person. Why did I do something like this? I approached the waiting room and tried to walk like I normally do and fight tears. As I walked in I seen Suzy, Arin, Danny, Mattias and Amanda in the waiting room. Suzy walked up to me first. She rubbed my back and softly spoke. "Hey Mark," She said gently. "How are you doing?" I rubbed my face. "Awful," I simply replied. Suzy sadly nodded. Arin and Danny both stood up as I walked up to them. "I'm sorry man," Danny said. "Arin nodded. "Keep faith in her bro," he said. "I am and thanks," I said with a week smile. I turned over and looked at Mattias and his wife and approached them. Amanda gave me a hug and rubbed my back a little. I gave her a week smile as Mattias stood up. He carefully grabbed my shoulder. "Hey man," he said with a small smile. "Bod and Wade are almost here. They told me to tell you if you came." I nodded. "Thanks," I said. They all still felt sorry for me but I am disgusted with myself. How can they look at me the same? As I got deep into my thoughts, two people ran into the room. I looked up to see Bob and Wade panting in the middle of the room. "Sorry, are we late?" Wade asked. "No," Mattias said. "She hasn't even came out of surgery yet," Arin added. Bob nodded and then looked into my direction. "Mark?" He asked. "How are you handling this?" I looked into his eyes. I wanted to say something but even the slightest movement of my mouth made my eyes water. All I could think about is our break up and all I could hear was her voice. I have never suffered more. I guess Wade noticed because he walked up and sat next to me, rubbing my back. "Don't worry," he said. "She'll make it." Bob smiled. "Yeah," he added. "We all have hope in her." Bob then sat down next to me. Finally a nurse walked in. "(F/N) (L/N)?" She said as all of us stood up. She looked surprised. She's ready if you all want to visit her." Suzy smiled, weakly. "Guys," she said. "I think we should stay here and let Mark go." They all agreed and I walked with the nurse towards her room. The nurse made a left and left me to walk in there alone. I hesitated for a second but then slowly open the door. I walked in to see that she wasn't awake. Tears fell from my eyes as I saw her. She was hooked up to several things. A machine to help her breath, a heart monitor, more then one ivy and had cotton stockinette around her stomach, arms, legs, and even on her upper body. She also had her hands and wrists bandaged." "Oh my god," I whispered to myself. I gently kissed her forehead. "I'm extremely sorry," I said in a voice stained in my tears.

Your POV

I opened my eyes and stood up. I looked around to see that I am in front of a hospital. I'm extremely confused so I walked in and ran to the front desk. "Hello?" I said. She ignored me. "Ma'am I need to ask you something." She still ignored me. It was almost like she had no idea I was there. I brushed it off and walked to the elevators. I got on and went to the second floor to see if maybe I have someone I know here to take me home. Suddenly I overheard two nurses talking. "It's just so tragic!" One said. "Yeah! I can't believe miss (F/N) (L/N) wanted to die so bad." "What?" I asked as I held my head suddenly something played in my mind.

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I was writing a letter, my tears staining it. I grabbed the knife and walked into the kitchen. I took the pills on the table and walked back into my room and began slicing the skin on my arms and legs, causing me to cry harder. Then I couldn't take it. I was so angry at myself I walked to the mirror. I looked in the mirror. "(F/N), (F/N), (F/N)," I said gradually getting louder. I then whispered to myself, "Stop crying," as images of Mark and me flashed through my brain, then images of Dark and Wilford. Suddenly Images of my father, mother, brother, and Sammy flashed through my head. "Well, your always pure to me," echoed through my head. I screamed "Stop!" In the mirror as I punched the mirror, breaking the glass and causing my knuckles to bleed. I then punched the wood where the mirror was with my other hand, causing it to bruise and slightly bleed to satisfy myself more. I got so angry with myself that I picked up the knife and began to stab myself in my stomach endlessly in one hand and in the other hand I held the letter I wrote. I then fell out of the window and hit the ground causing me to blacked out, with the letter in my hand.

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I gasped as I ran to my hospital room to see Mark with his hand placed gently over my hand on my body in a hospital bed, crying. He was whispering, "Please, I am so sorry," Was I having an out of body experience? Suddenly I seen a bright light shine through my window as old memories flashed through my head and our first date playing through my head. I heard my heart monitor beeping really fast and I turned from the light to see nurses run in and start giving me C.P.R. Mark was crying even harder now. I don't think I have ever seen him cry harder. I heard him say, "Don't go," and after that I walked up and placed my hand over his which was still on mine. He looked at me, as if he could see me. "(F/N)?" He asked looking at me then looking down at my body. Suddenly my heart monitor began to make a long beep noise, as the light nearly consumed me. He watched me beginning to fade off. "Wait!" He yelled. "Don't go! I love you!" Suddenly my heat monitor went back to normal and everything went black. I felt pain again as my eyes flashed open. Mark then leaned over to where I could see his face. "(F/N)!"