I can't even properly remember how long it's been since you died.. and I fucking know you didn't exist the way I thought you did. you weren't real.. well some one was behind the mask.. I'm not sure who. But fuck does it hurt. It hurts you know... that I let myself get attached to someone who was non existent. Since the fucking moment I read "Good bye pumpkin."I knew I was never going to be alright. I know I would be fucked up for the rest of my life... you were the first guy I've ever fallen for. You are probably the only one I'll ever fall for. Damn do your words flood my mind everyday. Just when I think I'm over you I relies I am not over you. I relies there will never be anyone like you. I relies you were one of the best things that has ever happened to me and I miss you so much it kills me inside everyday. I so desperately wish you knew how it feels to be this betrayed by someone who pours their heart out to you...
I so desperately wish you knew how many mental illnesses have become of you.
