I lay in bed just thinking about everything. All the guys that have hurt me, all my friends that have abandoned me for someone more popular, all the people prettier than me....... skinnier.... My older brother David, is with his friend Parker watching the races. David invited me along, but I had to decline because I had cheer. Is being able to fly too much to ask!?! It means SO much to me it's ridiculous! My Mom and I had a huge fight and now I'm not speaking to her. How did I get myself into this mess? This mess of life?
I find myself getting excited for school to start again. It's my get away place. I get to forget about all the crap that happens at home and just learn. I know most people hate it, but I love to learn. I love feeling all the facts click in my head once I understand something. Nothing feels like it. Even though it may be a hellhole, at least I get to learn. I just get to ignore everyone else. I don't even want to see my friends. I haven't even missed them all summer.
The idea of seeing them sickens me really. I really don't know what's wrong with me anymore.
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The Real Me
RandomNobody knows the way I feel when I'm alone. I'm just an ordinary girl. People say I'm beautiful, skinny. That's never been enough. I've been called pretty many times but they just whisk over my head. I'm called fat maybe a few times. It's etched in...
