The boys on tour (Frerard)

Secrets

"Woahhh, guys" Mikey exclaimed, making me jump up.

"Get some clothes on dude" Ray laughed, before walking away, Mikey shot me and Frank a strange look before joining him.

"Frank" I whispered, nudging the naked guy asleep beside me, he woke up.

"What's u-"

"They saw us Frank" I whispered, getting up and quickly dragging my clothes on.

"Shit" Frank mumbled as he did the same, dragging yesterday's sweaty clothes on.

I sat on the bed for a moment, what do I do? What do I say?

"Tell them we got drunk and passed out" Frank said.

"Naked!" I muttered, and Frank nodded.

I walked out into the main part of the bus slowly, Mikey shooting me funny looks, however nobody seemed to comment.

"Uh...hi" I smiled, lifting my hand to wave slightly at Mikey, he nodded.

"Hi"

Well isn't this fucking awkward.

Soon Frank joined us.

"Hey guys" he smiled, acting as if nothing ever happened, and he was good at it. I watched as he grabbed some bread and shoved it into the toaster.

"How was your night?" Frank smirked.

"How was yours?" Ray sniggered, Frank narrowed his eyes and Ray looked down.

"It was er...good thanks" he mumbled.

Frank smiled at me awkwardly and bit his lip before signalling for me to go into the back part of the bus, which I did quietly, he followed.

"We need to uh...talk about this" Frank said, his voice sounding ashamed.

"I get it" I mumbled before attempting to walk away however Frank grabbed my arm.

"Don't take it personally eh" he said, letting my arm go. My heart smashed into pieces, I was in love with Frank, I had been for some time now, and hearing him say those words made me feel sick, didn't he feel the same way? Why would he give off signals if he didn't? Asshole.

"All you wanted was an easy fuck didn't you" I snapped, but being quiet not to alert the others.

"No I-"

"Forget it, just...leave me alone" I said, tears forming in my eyes, Frank gave me a distressed look as I walked away and out of the bus, I needed some time to think, alone.

I walked along the car park where there were other bands getting ready to play, The used were a few buses down as they were our supporting act tonight. I knew Bert and had for a while so I decided to go and speak to him. I knocked on their tour bus door.

"Hey Gee" Bert smiled, opening the door.

'Come in" he said, moving out of the way so I could join him in his down time.

"So how can I help, has there been a change of timings, songs?" He said enthusiastically and I shook my head.

"No"

"Then what's up my dear?" He grinned, offering me a beer, which I gladly took.

"Well uh...something happened" I mumbled, taking a sip.

"Go on, I'm all ears" he smiled, leaning back on his chair.

"Well uh, me and Frank uh-"

"You fucked?" Bert said, interrupting me.

"Uh...well...to put it bluntly, yes" I sighed.

"Do you yanno, like him?" Bert said.

"I'm in love with him Bert, but he doesn't seem to give a fuck, he told me not to take the sex personally, so now I fucking hate myself for even letting myself sleep with him" I sobbed.

"Do you think he took advantage of you?" Bert said and I nodded.

"He knew I was willing to do it because of how I feel about him" I mumbled and Bert tutted.

"All I can say is you shouldn't think about it, let him carry on, he will regret it" Bert sighed.

"I guess so" I mumbled.

I guess Bert was right, the more I dwelled on it the worse I would feel, the best thing is to carry on like nothing ever happened and not take it 'personally' as stupid fucking Frank likes to put it.

"I better go, thanks Bert" I mumbled as I stood up.

"Anytime" I heard Bert say as I left the bus to find my own.

I walked in to be greeted by Mikey and Ray arguing over what guitars we will be using tonight.

"The red one" Ray snapped.

"No, the white one" Mikey sighed, shaking his head disaprovingly.

"No the red one has more character" Ray said, folding his arms in a child like manner.

I searched the bus for Frank and strangely he wasn't here, I guess he had got the hint and fucked off for a while, however I still cared, I still longed for him to hold me again like he did last night, I longed to feel his lips against mine. I'm am idiot.

"White" I mumbled as I left the bus to look for frank, and Ray gave me a funny look as I left.

I looked around the car park to see Frank sitting in the corner where we sat talking last night, I took a deep breath and walked over to him.

"I thought you wanted me to leave you alone" Frank said, his voice attacking.

"Was last night really that meaningless to you?" I said, trying desperately to hold back my tears, he didn't answer. I waited for a moment before walking away, I knew I should have left him, I guess I'm in too deep now.