The Rogue Protector

Chapter 1

Amber's P.O.V

The day my life changed was when I turned 15. When a werewolf turns 15, they shift into their wolf exactly on their birthday.

When I turned 15, I didn't shift. Nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch. When people found out, everyone turned on me except my family. I had just come back from school. You see, I went to an all werewolf schools with my older brother and sister. The day before I had come to terms with me not shifting.
At school all my friends had bullied and and turned on me. I wasn't the 'popular girl', but I wasn't unpopular either. I didn't get bullied, but all of a sudden that changed. At the end of the day, I had gotten so many mean comments. I was devastated and humiliated. I came home crying.

My mother and father were comforting me while my siblings were angry. They didn't know about what my classmates had done. (My brother and sister go to a different school. Seniors and Sophomores go to a different school than Freshman and Juniors.) After that it just got worse, but at least I had my family's love.

Then, the adults started to 'tease' my parents, when they found out they had started to defend me. They'd openly brag about their children's wolves in front of my parents. Not all the adults. Most of the adults would just act normal. Not discriminating my parents or anything. But, the snobby jealous ones would be mean to my parents. They were jealous because of my father and mothers position in the pack. Even though the Alpha didn't like me now, he still kept my father Beta.

After a while, my parents would start ignoring me. My siblings would too, because they were embarrassed to go anywhere with me. Every time we went out, people would give us disgusted looks.

My family didn't abuse me. They didn't immediatly start hating me. They just acted as if I wasn't there. When they went out to dinner, they wouldn't take me. I'd just hear the front door shut and know that they left without telling me. When dinner was served, they didn't tell me. I just had to get hungry enough and find my dinner cold, on the table. My parents didn't ask about my life or grades anymore. My sister, who used to be my best friend, didn't ask if I wanted to go to the mall or just hang out. My brother didn't ask about boys that I liked or kids who were giving me problems at school, so he could act protective. Whenever I saw them, they just countinued doing what they were doing. I didn't bother talking to them.

It hurt so bad. Me not shifting. My friends turning on me. Bullies humiliating me and sometimes hitting me. My Alpha not caring about one of his pack members. My parents and siblings turning their backs. It all hurt so much.
But the thing that really impacted me was when my mate rejected me.

His name was Ryder. He was the Alphas son. He didn't really bully me. He was really just one of the ignorers. But the day we bumped into eachother and felt the sparks, he actually looked at me.

Flashback:

I was just shoved by Daisy, one of my 'ex-friends' and I fell against a warm body. I felt sparks and looked up. I met grey eyes and a head of messy black hair. He was built and had alot of muscles as I could see his abs from his tight shirt. But, he wasn't buff, like he was son steroids. He was tall and towered over my 5'6 form. His oh so kissable lips formed a word: mate. He looked around and quickly dragged me into a closet. I was too dazed to fight back. I felt the sparks on my hands that I had only read about in books.
He ran his hands through his messy hair and said, "This is bad! This is really bad!"
I came out of my daze and whimpered.
"Do you not accept me?" I asked.
"I just cannot have a non-shifter has my mate. One, you'll be a lot more vulnerable as a Luna who's about human and, I might not be accepted into the Alpha position. There's too many obsticules."
I realized what he meant. "Please don't do this."
"I'm sorry." He whispered, and kissed me in a long, passionate kiss, full of love."I love you, but I have to do this."
"I, Ryder Michael, reject Amber Williams as my mate."
My heart felt as if it broke in two. I wanted to die. It was times like this when I wished I had a wolf and it's advice.
I fell to the ground. The mating bond wouldn't be broken fully, if I didn't accept.
He looked at me in pain, guilt, and sadness.
"I'm so sorry Amber. I didn't mean to, I just..."
"I'm not going to accept it." I interrupted.
He looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Baby, I don't want you to be in pain."
"I can survive. You however have no right to call me baby! Did you ever think that I might just want your love?! That that'd be enough?!"
I didn't wait for a response. I sprinted out of school. I didn't go to school for a whole week, not that my parents noticed.

One day, I was crying about how pathetic I was when I felt the most excruciating pain. It felt like every one of my bones were breaking. I begged for death. I pleaded for mercy from the Moon Goddess.

Then, it all stopped. I tried standing up, but I was shorter than before. I could also see, hear, and smell better then before. I was also unusually warm. I looked in my mirror. My amber eyes widened. I was a wolf! My fur was black as night.

I snarled at my reflection. With my glowing eyes (that looked a little brighter in wolf form) and my dark fur, I looked pretty scary. My size was really big for a female, but still smaller than a male.

'We look good!' Said a voice inside my head.

Do you guys have voices inside your head? No? Well guess it's just me then.

'Who was that!' I thought wildly.

'Me dummy!' The voice giggled.

Great! Amber's finally lost it. She's lost her marbles! Off her rocket!

'I'm your wolf! My name's Ziva!' She said.

Great! I thought with relief. I'm only halfway into insanity, not the whole way!

'Hey Ziva.' I thought. 'How do we turn back into human?'
She instructed me to think about myself in my human form.

I thought about my amber eyes. My raven black, messy curls. I wasn't a bad looking girl. My mom said that she was going to name me Rose. But, when she held me, the first thing she saw was my amber eyes. She said she knew exactly what my name should be. Amber Rose Williams. Enough on that.

I thought about my apperance and immediatly began feel in the pain I was in when I turned into my wolf. This pain was a little bit less intense, but still painful nontheless.

I looked in the mirror, I was human again! I quickly put on some clothes (when wolves turn back into their human forms, they appear naked...talk about awkward). I talked to my wolf.

'Why didn't you come two years ago?' I asked.

'I don't know why, all the Moon Goddess said was that you were not ready yet. She said that you had to wait until I had my full strength.'

I pondered that thought. I have to admit, I was a little mad. If I had my wolf ages ago, all this could've been avoided.
'Maybe our mate will accept us now!' Ziva said excitedly.
I was filled with anger towards my 'mate'.

'No! If our pack, family, or mate wouldn't accept us before, they can't accept us now! We need to leave, and show them the consequences of treating us like trash!' I thought vehemently.

After some persuasion Ziva agreed with me.
I packed a backpack full of clothes, food, and other necessities.
I grabbed my video camera.

Tonight was the Winter Festival. The Winter Festival occurred once a year and celebrated us surviving another whole yeat. At Winter Festival, the whole pack came and danced, ate, and had a good time. At the end, there was a video that showed all the pack members that had died in battle that year. It was a way of honoring them. I could easily make a video and put it on there, instead of the veteran video. I know, disrespectful, but I needed to do this and the original video would come on right after that. I got to work.

30 minutes later.

I snuck behind the projector and put the hardrive in the computer. After that, I quickly edited the original video so mine showed first, than the other one. After I was done, I looked at the festival. I hadn't been to a Winter Festival in two years. I figured I'd either just be ignored the whole time, or be humiliated. So I didn't go.
It looked fun. I saw my mom and dad dancing and smiling at eachother. I saw my brother talking to his friends and I saw my sister laughing with hers. Ryder was dancing with a pretty brunette. Everyone looked so happy. Just like I thought, my leaving won't affect anybody. It'll be easier on everyone.
With one last sad, tearful look, I left my pack. I'm a rogue now.