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untimely

Jaekyu

I really should not be feeling such a way after all that had happened. I have a crush on him? What a timing. I know that he definitely disliked me for leaving him like that. I was sad, why couldn't he understand me? He doesn't understand that I like him yet again. What did I do wrong? Why was he doing this to me? The more he tried to get closer to me as just friends, the sadder I got.

I regret those times where I left him without a trace. Even his actions showed the hate he had towards me for leaving him although his words said otherwise . I was getting more and more confused whether he actually wanted to reconcile. I came to love him in the end, accepting what my heart wanted, even after all that had happened. If it was about him, no matter how small of a matter, I still remember it.

I wanted him to be my man and not my friend. Not like this.

Junhoe

Why was it that I felt this again, that I like her? Why was this happening to me now? I promised myself to only become friends with her. Why was it like this? Did she still love me? Did she sense how I felt towards her? Should I confess to start "us" all over again?

JaeKyu

I didn't do anything wrong. But why did he only want to be friends with me for no reason? Why couldn't he understand me? I still liked him. It was only then I remembered that he didn't want to be in a relationship with me again. He made my strong motivation to make "us" happen again wither away more and more the more he said to be friends. I thought my heart racing days would be over. But once again, slowly, could I get even closer to him again? Could we be more than just friends again?

In case he would hate me for even looking at him, I secretly hid behind and tremble with fear. What if he didn't feel the same anymore? I would only be embarrassing myself. When the sun set and the moonlight rose, it was then when I finally got courage to tell him my heart. But he and I grew too far apart already, I stayed in the shadows looking at him from afar instead. He wouldn't even look at me like how he used to anymore. That was when I realized, he probably didn't want to be more than just friends.

Just in case he changed his mind and begin loving me again, I kept my hopes up. Should I just confess? Would it work? What if he has a crush on someone else? What if he moved on from 'us' and was getting close to me again because he likes one of my group members? I wish he would do it first because I was scared, scared of rejection.