M E A N D P E T E

P A T T Y C A K E S

I told Pete that I would talk to "Patricia" right now. So I went outside and called Patrick. After 2 rings, he picked up.

"I fucked up. Oh my god I'm so stupid", I blurted out without even greeting him.

"Hello to you too. What happened, Ash? Are you okay?" Patrick sounded concerned.

"I'm fine. Thanks. But uh um well I sorta told Pete all about me being into BDSM and I said that I had a dominant named Patricia and now he wants to meet her." There was a pause.

"Holy smokes, Ashlyn. Why didn't you tell me about Patricia? Is she better than me? Is that why?" I laughed very hard.

"You're so dumb. You're Patricia. Did you want me to tell Pete that you're my dominant?"

"I suppose I'll have to tell him one day." So did he want me to tell him?

"But we're like dating now so I don't know how he will take this all, ya know? Should I tell him the truth?"

Again, there was a pause. "We should tell him together. Is that okay? But if we tell him, we have to stop whatever we have going on. Sorry, Ash." I sighed. This was for the best though.

"Yeah it's fine. I love you Pattycakes. I mean uh I gotta go?" I quickly hung up. Why did I say that I loved him?! Fuck me.

I got a text from Patrick.

p: I love you too. I'll miss you. But this is for the best. When would you like to talk to Pete about this all?

I smiled. I guess I loved him like a brother. Well a brother who fucked me. Hard. I texted him back.

a: I'll miss you too, Pattycakes. Maybe later tonight? I'll order some food and then we can all talk.
p: sounds good to me. I'm nervous. How do you think he'll react?
a: Its gonna be alright. I'm not sure how he will react. We'll have to wait and see.

I turned off my phone and headed back inside. Pete wasn't in the living room. So I went up to his room, making sure I knocked.

"Come in!" Pete said. "Hey. I talked to Patricia and invited her over tonight, if that's okay?" I was so nervous. "That's great. I'm excited to talk to her. I want to learn how to be a dominant for you." He smiled.

Oh yes he's going to be so excited to see Patrick come over. "Yay! I can't wait!" I tried my hardest to seem happy. But I was actually very fucking scared. I texted Patrick.

a: he said he's excited and that he wants to learn how to dominate me:)
p: great. I'll be over in an hour
a: see you then pattycakes

I went to the bathroom and took a shower. Halfway through, I started to have a panic attack. I sat down and started crying. What if Pete flips out when he finds and hurts me again? Or Patrick? I started crying harder.

Pete must've heard me because he busted in. "What's wrong, Ash?!" I put my head into my knees. "Go away." I said. He ran over to me and turned off the water. He grabbed the towel that was hanging and wrapped it around me. "What happened, babe?"

I spoke between sobs. "I- don't- know. Please go." He pulled me into a hug, not caring I was naked and wet. "No. Tell me what's wrong." He looked at me. I looked up into his hazel eyes.

"I'm nervous about tonight. Please don't freak out when our guest comes over." He gave me a confused look. "Why would I?" I swallowed. "Uh I don't know." I looked down again.

He lifted my chin up and kissed me softly. Slowly, the kisses became more passionate. I pulled away before anything more heated could happen. "I'm gonna go get dressed now. Thank you for helping me." I kissed him again and stood up. He stood up too. "Welcome babe and okay."

I went to my room and put on black high waisted jeans and a black and white striped shirt. I blew dry my hair and straightened it. I put on makeup and put on my black socks and oxfords.

I headed downstairs and texted Patrick.

a: I had a panic attack in the shower about this all
p: I'm sorry to hear that. Everything is going to be okay. I promise.
a: thank you:)
p: Welcome. I'm on my way over. See you soon.

I put down my phone as I heard Pete walk down the stairs. He had on a black sweater and black skinny jeans. His short blonde hair poked through his black fedora. "Damn Pete. You look fiine." He smiled and let out a small chuckle.

"You look beautiful yourself." He said and I blushed. He sat next to me on the couch. I got up and sat in his lap. "Thank you. Our guest is on their way over."

"Why do you keep calling Patricia 'our guest'?" I didn't know how to respond. It felt weird calling Patrick "Patricia". "I don't know." Then my heart stopped.

I heard a car pull into the driveway. I got up and looked out the window. It was Patrick. He parked his car next to mine and walked towards the door. I opened it up before he could knock.

"Hey. Come in." He smiled nervously and sat down on the couch next to Pete. He seemed confused. "Patrick uh why are you here? We have someone coming over and-" Patrick cleared his throat. "Yeah. I'm 'Patricia'." He laughed lightly.

I looked at Pete and fake smiled. "Patrick is my dominant. I-we wanted to tell you together. I called him Patricia because I was scared to tell you the truth." He just stared at me. "Say something." I said.

He looked at Patrick. "I-I don't know what to say. What can I say? My best friend is fucking and beating my girlfriend? And I find out now? Pat, why didn't you tell me about Ashlyn? Did you guys like date? Are you still dating? Fuck." Pete looked hurt.

"Pete, we haven't done anything in 3 months. And I don't beat her. It's.. Complicated. I didn't tell you about her because, well, I didn't want to. What we had was secret and I liked it that way. We weren't and aren't dating. This was more of just sex, as friends." I nodded "yes" agreeing with Patrick. "Sorry." We said at the same time.

Pete shook his head and got up. "Pete stop. Talk to us." I said. He grabbed his car keys and left without saying another word. I grabbed his arm before he left, but he just squirmed away. He needed some time to let this sink in. I stood at the door watching his car pull out of the driveway.

"I'm sorry, Ashlyn. I'm so sorry." Patrick looked as if he was going to cry. I walked to the couch and hugged him. "No. This was needed. Thanks, Pattycakes",I kissed him on the cheek, "Could you stay here tonight? I have a guest room and-" He smiled. "Of course."