Rebel Love Song //Andy Biersack\\

What now?

《Nicky's Pov》

All of that was five years ago. Andy had left me five years ago. I still remember it like it was yesterday.

-flashback-

"Do....do you really have to go?" I asked Andy while crying. I couldn't face the fact that I was going to loose my only best friend, and once again possible boyfriend.

"Yeah...im so sorry Nicky. But I promise I'll be back for you after the tour. I would never leave you." Andy said with tears forming in his eyes. "But as long as you promise to never press a blade to your skin again." He said while taking ahold of my wrist lightly.

Yeah I cut myself. I'm not prod of it. It's something I really need to stop doing. I'm a big wimp for doing that and not handling my problems. Don't judge me.

"I promise.."

"Nicky just remember no matter what. I'm always here for you. Call me or text me any time. I love you." Andy said as he got into Ashley's car so they could drove to the airport.

"I love you too" I barley whisper as I watch the car drive away.

-flashback over-

Now i dont have that scene hair cut with the blue tips. Myhairs just straight and black. Pretty boring right. My style has changed a lot too. I dont want to say I dress slutty but most of my shirts are pretty reveling and i own a lot of skin tight jeans and shorts. I've changed a lot.

We stayed in touch for the first month he was on tour but then he got really busy and forgot about me. I heard he's got a girlfriend named Juliet. I've saw pictures of her and she's super pretty. Even worse I've saw pictures of them together. Yeah I love the fact that Andys happy i just don't like the fact that it's not with me.

When Andy left I got beat up even more in school and I didn't get any friends after that.

I hate him for lying to me after I kept my promise. I kept my promise and he couldn't keep his. I thought he cared.

All of these thoughts were running through my head as I held the cold metal between my fingers.

Should I do it...its not like he would know or care....

Without even thinking I drug the razor across my skin and did it again and again and again. All of this anger. All of the hurt and sadness I've been keeping inside of me flows out with the blood that's now dripping on my bathroom floor.

Well fuck.

I now have my own apartment which in my opinion is pretty nice. I found out a way to become fill my dream of being an artist and that was to become a tattoo artist. I mean tattoos are pretty badass and they looked pretty cool so yeah I was excited when I got my first job at the tattoo place downtown.

I just recently got fired because the bosses girlfriend doesnt like me. So yeah I'm doing great.

I plop myself into the couch and turn on the radio. Black veil brides knifes and pens comes on. I remember helping the guys record that and help with the video. A tear slowly falls down my cheek. What am I doing with my life anymore.

I grab my keys and leather jacket and walk out the door. I don't have a fucking I really were in going but I'm leaving. Hearing Andys voice and thinking about him just made me go crazy. Why would he do that to me.

I kept walking until I realized it was getting dark. Shit I should get home. I started walking faster and faster because I hated being alone in the city at night. God it fucking scared the living shit out of me. More than teenagers.

Then Andy popped into my mind again. He was taking over my life. I burst into tears and collapsed on the side walk crying. I must of cried myself to sleep because I woke up later and I was in what seemed to be....a bunk. Oh shit this can't be good. I'm going to get raped if I haven't already. Shit.

I slide out of the bunk and walked out to what I'm guessing is the living area type thing. It looked strange to me. It was just aranged weird.

I see three guys sitting on one side and two in the other. They are in all black and they look really familiar. Oh fuck no. This is not happening. No not today.

"Andy? I....."I was at loss of words. That fucking dick left me. I could feel the sadness and hurt spread across my face. 

"Nicky! I haven't seen you in forever." Andy said while getting up and pulling me into a hug.

I pushed him off of me. Oh I was going to snap. "You haven't seen me in five years Andy. Five years because you broke your promise. Now all of the sudden you can come walking back into my life like everything's fine. I've had no one there for me for five years I've been on my own. I'm not fine. I'm not okay You found me on the side walk Andy. What the hell does that tell you." I was almost crying by now all of these feelings were building up inside of me and I didn't know what to do with them.

"Nicky. I'm sorry I was a douche bag. I should've kept my promise but......wait....Nicky did you keep your promise." Andy said as worry filled his Ivey blue eyes.

"Well we're going to give you two some privacy." Jinxx said motioning towards the door as the four guys left the room. "Its really great seeing you again Nick." Jinxx yelled as he walked away.

"Well Andy I tried. I tried so hard. Until last night. I broke down and I couldn't take it anymore. I don't know what's happening." I said now bawling.

"Nicky....im so sorry this is all my fault." Andy said while pulling me into a hug as we cried into each other's shoulders. "Can I make it up to you?"

"How?" I asked obviously confused.

"Well I'm sure the Guys won't mind because they've missed you as much as I have but I was wondering if you would come on tour with us?" Andy said excitedly. I was still mad at Andy but who could say no to those blue eyes. Maybe this was our chance to fix everything.

"I guess" I said finally cracking when Andy did his puppy dog face.

"YAY I'm so glad I got the old Nicky back" he said while giving me and picking me up and twirling me around.

"It's not going to be that easy" I mumbled.