Letters to both my future and past selves

It's been a year, wow

Hi! At the time I'm writing this it is 11:42pm July 18th, 2025

 I am now officially 21 years old, crazy. It has been a very, very eventful year. First of all I had to re-read the previous chapter and damn thing are going to be a bit brutal to hear. You have been Working at the doggy daycare for a year and a half now. While working there you got promoted to become a lead after only working 3 months, and after i think two months of being a lead you got bit in the face by a Boxer/Labrador Retriever mix. You went to the ER and saw and Elvis impersonator which was hilarious and proceeded to get a tetanus shot. You went to work the day after because you were fine even though you had a huge scar on your face but that healed and you barely see it now as of today.

You then got promoted to be a Receptionist. Mahogany started working at your job and became a lead. During your whole job you found your favorite dog, his name is Walter and he is an Irish Wolfadoodle who was rescued the day he was supposed to be put down and thank god for that because otherwise you would've never met him. He is the sweetest big boy ever! After you became a receptionist you didn't really get to go into the yards with the dogs as much which was a huge bummer. We had a lot of dogs moving to different states, countries etc. But, the most painful thing that you had to deal with was dogs passing away. Especially ones that you absolutely fell in love with. 

We had a Mastiff with no eyes named Kai and he absolutely adored everyone but them he got Cancer and hid dad didn't want him to suffer anymore so he put him down. We also had a Lab named Tucker and he had a brother named Max. Tucker passed away about march of 2025 and it still hurts to think about. He was the absolute sweetest and loved his belly rubs. His brother Max still comes to board every now and then but you can definitely tell he missed his big brother. He's started to get snappy and is getting to old for camp and I am not ready for when he can't come to camp anymore. He is my big old man and he absolutely adores me.

We had Kimber, Walter's littermate move away to Japan because her dad got stationed there and that hurt a lot too. Honestly every time a dog leaves or passes the rainbow bridge a little part of me breaks. But working front had also helped me with becoming friends with the pet parents too. Which also hurts because i particularly became close with two older gentlemen that brought their dogs to camp and while i was on vacation on a Cruise one passed away and the next month after i had just come back from a trip to Utah i learned that the other was in the hospital and a few days later passed away. Their Wives bring the pups to camp now and you could tell the everyone including the pups were not happy. 

One of the wives told me that her husband and her considered this another home for them and her pup and i started crying and had to hug her. I really couldn't process that their husbands passed away until i heard that. After we had that hug she told me that she really needed that and thanked me, I was so happy that i made her feel loved. 

Now, about Mahogany, do you remember how in the chapter before this you said she was a shining light in your dull world. Yeah, not anymore, Ever since we started working together and she became lead everything became 10x harder. She is constantly getting angry at you for her job not going the way it planned. If I'm being honest I think right now she is that reason you are stressed so badly. Even mom could tell how in the past year your happiness completely plummeted. You still don't have your License. SHOCKER!! But you really want to study and learn not cause you depend to much on your mom and Mahogany and if you want a break from her then you need to learn so you can be independent. Your boss had a baby and he turned 1 in march, he is absolutely obsessed with you and your boss calls you his girlfriend. We have gotten especially close to our boss and a few co-workers woo woo. AND we finally are learning how to play DND. Right now your a High elf Wizard named Aric, its really fun. Your old friend from 5  years ago moved back to your Town from Texas and you couldn't be happier. You've both grown into really beautiful young women and we couldn't be prouder. Well maybe if we had our license we would be happier lol, more freedom definitely. 

You have collected a hugs amount of Funko pops over this year and right now your whole collection is worth about $2,300, it is mostly Stranger Things Pops because you started to collect them and never stopped lol. You've also amassed a gorgeous collection of books and Danmei along with kpop albums. Speaking of, you're not really that much into Kpop anymore, your hyper-fixation ended, however if a chance cam for me to ever go see and Stray kids concert I would be there in no time. Grandpa passed away in May of 2024 right after Younger Bro's 17th Birthday. Younger Bro turned 18 this year and graduated the same month. I'm honestly so proud of how far my brother has gotten and I am proud to be called his sister even though he can definitely be a huge dick sometimes. 

I'm not really sure what else i can add because it has been an extremely eventful year and if i remember anything to add i would love to say that i will add it but lord know I'm gonna forget all about this diary and then find it a year later and have a million different things to say about it. So, 
Future/Past Me, I Love You, don't give up. Don't lose hope and be the best you that you can be. and as quoted in Zombies 4 "Impossible is possible" and I'll add on that that is why it is spelled as im-possible. 

Sincerely You, <3

Completed Chapter at 12:27pm