Call me Crazy

Red Handed 7

Cassidy's P.O.V
10:50 - We're driving down small quiet roads saying nothing, just enjoying each other's company. I would look over to Noah and just admire his focus sometimes. I can't do that anymore, you know keep my mind on something that's right in front of me. I'll always be looking behind myself always looking for more answers. He would look at me sometimes and then look away again. It would go on like that for a while . Until both our eyes would meet the road again. Then repeat.

10:55- I'm really tired I don't want to sleep, yet staying awake is so hard. I don't want to leave Noah alone I guess. Well in the sense that he's the only conscious one out of the two of us. I'm kind of hungry too. I haven't eaten since 12am today. I'm also really happy because Ashton invited me to go to the lake with him this weekend and I haven't been there in over a year. Last time we were messing with the tire swing and the whole thing just fell in on us. It was really funny actually. That was the day he took me shopping and bought the yellow bikini while I wasn't looking. Everyone always jokes about how I would make a perfect couple with either Ashton or Noah but they're my best friends and I wouldn't want to jeopardize that by falling into misconceptions that other people come up with.

11:00- We're getting closer and closer to our destination. Quickly yet delicately we would make our way down the curvy dark roads. As we approach my house I see the street lights getting brighter. My heart rate is picking up and my mind's dropping because of my realization that I would be faced with my mom. Noah pulled into the front of my house to let me out.
We said nothing. He sighed as he let go of the steering wheel placing his hand on his lap. Funny how you can know someone for so long and then In a heartbeat they can become a stranger. It was so peaceful being in his company though. I could be sitting on blazing rocks and be okay as long as he was there. Noah looked over to me as he reached for my hand. I let him hold it, nothing about it was new. And yet it was so unfamiliar. It was just Noah and I. Alone. In the dark. Naturally I smiled, as he let out a crooked smile too. We stared at each other. My eyes wide but relaxed, glazed with what seemed to be tears. I was scared. I'm scared of commitment or anything that came with it. Ever since Hayden. I haven't told anyone about it. Not even Noah, or Hannah or Brooke, Ashton. No one. I'm scared that I'll get hurt. And even though nothing is happening I'm scared that it will.

With all my thinking I failed to notice my mom calling at me to get the hell out of the car. I was feeling lightheaded and everything felt foggy but one thing was crystal clear to me. I wanted Noah's lips on mine. I didn't care that my mom was angry at me, or scared that something may or may not blossom between Noah and myself. Nothing mattered at that moment. So I kissed him. Not like a quick peck on the lips, I kissed him with everything I had left in me. And the best part is, he kissed back with the same passion.

"I'm sorry." Is all I could get out after that. He looked into my eyes quickly before I ran out of the car. He looked confused and it killed me that I could be toying with him. Because I didn't know what I wanted. My mom looked furious as I jogged past her. But I could care less. Funny how little someone could mean to you, and how much their words affect you.

"Cassidy Aubrey Meyer get your slutty ass down here or so help me!" She called at me as I was making my way up our staircase. Glad my little brother was down here to witness the other half of our mom that I'm so familiar with.

" Why can't you just leave it alone mom." I said as I stood there.
" Why can't I leave it alone Cassidy? Well I can't leave it alone; one because you left the house for two days without permission or notice of where you were going, God only knows what you did with boys wherever you were. Oh and two when you finally come home from your sex trip your kissing another boy in front of my house?! Well I take it you understand now; why I can't let it go!"

"I'm sure you'll have lots of time to think about my punishment with Charlie, you know because he learnt a few new words today." She realized her situation and made her way over to my six year old brother to redeem herself. That should buy me some time away from all their crap.

I walked up into my room got ready for bed and plopped myself down on my mattress. I don't like how my mom isn't as careful about her words to Charlie. If I could, I would take him far far away from here. It's not as bad here as a probably make it out to be sometimes. Hell so many people have it worse. I just need to suck it up and get over it. It's what I've been doing a lot lately. So what's a little while longer?

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Hope you guys liked it I lost four of my chapters yesterday so I'll try and write as much as I can to recover the info that I lost! Anywho have a great day lovies! Xoxo