Just A Crush? No, It's Love.

Cheater Cheater. 9

ERVINS POV-

I'm nearly in tears by now because Cameron means so much to me and he hurt himself. Maybe this is why he's been acting strange. "I flushed the blade.." He said. He looked sincere. I pulled him into another hug, trying to be more careful this time because I didn't want to hurt him. "Tell me what's been wrong lately. These past few days you've been spaced out or something.." I say. He shakes his head and then hugs back. His embrace is so comforting.  He gives the best hugs I've ever experienced. After about five minutes we let go. He goes and sits on his bed. I sit next to him facing him. He looks at me and I look back at him. His eyes are so pretty when he's crying..not that it's good when he cries but his eyes are so much more blue. My eyes are boring brown. His eyes practically glow. Mine are boring brown. His eyes are amazing to look at..you guessed it. Mine are boring brown. He finally speaks up. "I..I've been acting like this because.." He starts but doesn't finish. "because?" I ask. "Because honestly I..I've been feeling left out. And my depression is coming back. My panic attacks are back. And I hate it." He says. I sigh. "it'll be okay" I say and then there's a knock on the door. "ERVIN! I'm leaving!" Said Jemma. "Aw..cameron I'll be back" I told him. He nodded and then laid down. I went out and then hugged her. She hugged back and then her phone dinged which caused everyone to look up at her. She pulled out her phone and I saw the persons name. 'Mason' I've never heard of this person before. She quickly hid her phone. "Who's that?" I asked. "Nobody" she replied quickly. "Nobody? I'm serious who is it?" I asked again, more sternly. "A friend.." She said quietly. Liar. I can tell when she lies she stands on her tiptoes a little. "You're lying. Who. Is. Mason?" I almost yelled. Everyone was looking but I didn't fucking care at the moment. "Ervin..can I tell you something?" She said quietly. "Spit it." I said. "I'm cheating on you..please forgive me! It's just I haven't seen you in forever." She cried. "Shut the fuck up and get out. We're done. Don't ever talk to me again!" I yelled. This made me so angry but even more so hurt. Everyone jumped a little by my sudden outburst. She started to cry and then she ran off. I just stood there trying to process that my girlfriend of a year and a half cheated on me. I can't believe it. I look at the other guys. Austin's covering his mouth and Lucas is just shocked. Cameron comes out of his room and I nearly break into tears. I grab Cameron's hand and then take him back into his room and I shut the door behind us Then I immediately start crying. His expression was hurt. He hugs me and I lay my head on his shoulder and just sob. He finally gets tired of standing I guess and then sits on the edge of the bed. I sit too and then he lays down. "Come here" he says quietly. And I do. I lay down next to him and he wraps his arms around me. "Shhh. It's okay. You're okay. You didn't need her anyway." He says softly into my ear. I nod. I turn over on my other side so we are face to face. He looks into my eyes and I look back into his. His gorgeous eyes. I'm so mesmerized I can't look away. Then he blinks and I do look away. He wipes away my tears and then runs his hand through my hair. I completely forget about everything and just cuddle into him because that's what I really need right now. To be held. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me closer so now our bodies are pressed against eachother. "It's okay.." He whispers. Then I close my eyes because I realize nothing really matters but him.