Just A Crush? No, It's Love.

Feelings Stronger Than Before. 3

CAMERONS POV-

I lean on him a little. I feel more comfortable with him than any of the other guys. He's such a great friend..and I have a huge crush on him, but lord forbid he know because I'm pretty sure he's straight and I know he has a girlfriend that he loves very much. We could never happen. I look at him and he looks back at me. He looks so amazing right now I think to myself. The way the sun is rising gives just the right amount of dim light where his eyes look darker than usual. I love his eyes now but they look even more gorgeous than they usually do. His hair is messed up because he obviously didn't brush his hair before he went to look for me. The way it's falling in his face. Oh my god. He smiles softly and my eyes flicker to his lips for a fraction of a second. Oh my god his lips are so perfect. I would love to kiss them. They look so soft. "You alright now?" He asks softly. "Yeah..I am." I say. He nods and then gets up. "We should probably go back?" He asks..I don't really want to, I want to stay with him for a while.. "I don't really want to..but you can go" I tell him. He shakes his head and sits back down next to me. "I don't want to leave you by yourself." He says. "I'll be fine but thanks for staying, man". "Eh, that's what friends do." He answers. I smile softly. He's so nice and understanding. But he doesn't love me. He never will. He will never understand how much I care about him. He looks at the trees in front of us and I just kind of stare into empty space like I do when I'm thinking. Thinking about us not being able to be together makes my chest hurt so bad. Like my heart just got ripped out. The pain just grows stronger and it's driving me insane. I inhale deeply then sigh. We sit there for about an hour and then he looks at me and taps on my shoulder. "Hey, can we go back now?" He asks. By now I'm completely calm and relaxed. "Yeah" I say and then get up and hold out my hand. He grabs my hand and then I pull him up. "Thanks man" "yup". Then We start walking back home.
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At home we walk in and the others are still asleep. They won't wake up until about nine or ten. Ervin looks at me. "Do you want to go back to sleep?" He asks me. I nod and then yawn. I'm extremely tired. "Alright, sleep good" he says and then walks off to the room him and Lucas share. The house only has 3 rooms so me and Austin share a room and him and Lucas share a room and all of our equipment and stuff stays in the other room. I walk to my room and then take off my shoes and then get in bed. I close my eyes and pull the blanket over me. The last thing on my mind before I go to sleep is Ervin. And then I'm out.