Don't Go There (Camren)

Chapter 25

Camila started to finally let go. A lot of people were right, Lauren didn't deserve her after everything that happened. She hurt Camila too much. Usually Camila couldn't move on she always had a special place for Lauren inside her heart. She was her weakness. But now Camila was done. The games between her and Lauren were over now. Lauren made it very clear she didn't want anything to do with Camila. She accepted that and that's why she had to move on. She no longer wanted Lauren to have this power over her. The power to hurt her.

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After the talk with Camila's grandmother, Lauren decided that she should go to he younger girl and pour her heart out. She was scared to death. But she couldn't do more.

"I think you should just do it." Taylor told Lauren as they were walking towards this restaurant. "What if she hates me?" Lauren said unsure. "Let's find out then." Taylor said as soon as she spotted the younger Cuban and her tall friend. "What?" Lauren said before she looked at where Taylor was looking. Her eyes widened. She swallowed her pride and everything else as she made her way towards Camila.

"Hey." She said softly. Camila looked up and was met with her favorite pair of eyes. She was a little shocked that Lauren talked to her. "Hi." She replied. "I was wondering if you wanted to talk." Lauren said nervous looking at Camila hopefully. Dinah scoffed and went to give them some space. The Polynesian was more than angry at Lauren since she knew how hard it was for Camila to get over her. "Camz?" Lauren said after a while of Camila not responding. "I can't." Camila said looking down at the ground. There it was the word Lauren hated so much.

But Camila couldn't. Lauren had so many chances to talk and to explain things but she didn't. Instead she had hurt her over and over again and had always ran away. Avoiding and ignoring Camila and it made her always miserable. How Lauren had played games with her. The way Lauren told her to stay away.

Now that Lauren finally wanted to talk Camila didn't. Maybe not completely. A part of Camila wanted to talk so badly to Lauren. So she would know what the whole reason behind Lauren's behavior was. So she could ask her so many unanswered questions. But she couldn't. Because she had already closed this chapter. She still had feelings for the older woman but she couldn't get hurt once again. It was better this way. Lauren looked completely broke by Camila's answer.

"Are you sure? Because I really want to talk." Lauren tried again. "Me too." Camila said. Lauren looked confused but before she could say something back Camila continued. "A long time ago." She said referring to talking with eachother. Lauren looked down at her feet. "I'm too late?" She questioned already knowing the answer. "I'm sorry Lauren.. Whenever I tried to talk you, you would always push me away or make me look bad in front of your mother, who once saw me as her own daughter and now we don't even talk." Camila said sadly.

"I know and I am extremely sorry. I just want to explain." Lauren pleaded hoping the younger girl would give in. How much Camila wanted she stood her ground. She couldn't give in. "I don't want to know. You had your chance." Camila said trying to fight the tear that was threatening to roll down her cheek. Lauren looked at her defeated. "Please.." She tried one last time. Her hand lingering on Camila's arm like she used to do back then. Camila looked away she couldn't look at those green eyes boring into her brown ones. She stepped away. "No. You are not a part of my life anymore... you used to have this power over me but it's over now... I have tried." Camila said her voice breaking slightly.

"I fucked up." Lauren groaned. "I love you Camila. I want you to know that. I love you and I always did. I'm just not good with feelings and I know that is no excuse to the pain that I brought you... I was so scared of our parents and everything else. I'm sorry for everything. Most of all I'm sorry for ruining every possibility of us being together." Lauren confessed her feelings for Camila. Her voice with thick emotion. As she let her tears fall freely.