Leuko : Blind to the Sunshine

Chapter 53: Blind to Reality

Chapter 53: Blind to Reality

"Cause otherwise it's painful...and I believe in pain cause I'm inferior to you, so sorry if that displeases you. I can stop when I'm in front of you if you prefer, but Joy said I should take care of myself, so I cannot allow myself to stop permanently." I answered unbothered by the question, it's not everyone who knows the importance of breathing after all, and those who know usually don't get to speak their newfound knowledge.

I heard the sound of Natural shaking his head. "You have no need to concern yourself over such a minor matter, for my only interrogation is why death hasn't claimed you yet? All of my senses, all of my knowledge, all of my power tell me one simple fact, that you are death, yet my eyes betray all of these assumptions."

Oh, so that's what he means. Maybe he is worried like Joy and Geeta were? No...from the way he sounds, he doesn't mind my fate at all, he was only perplexed as to why he cannot figure out my situation.

Or I thought, I couldn't see their face currently, so maybe he was on the verge of tears and I didn't know.

"Because I'm selfish."

"And how does it correlate with you refusing to accept your fate?"

"Oh, it was very simple, despite everyone agreeing I should die, I refused to because I was selfish." I paused for a moment as I considered another point. "Well I suppose they're starting to have more people who think the opposite, but the reasoning still started because I was selfish."

Natural still looked as confused as before, but he still kept his smile on his face.

"Heu...sir...sir Solarium...I...I believe that..."

I turned toward the source of the sound that I identified as Yellow, before cutting her. "You should not call me Solarium, I am not allowed to bear that name."

Yellow studerred even more. "I...I am sorry...sir..." Yellow was interrupted once more by what I could only identify as the clapping of hands.

"You should not apologize for anyone other than our lord, you carry is pride each one you bow, so do not waste it." An unknown voice chastised Yellow, so I attributed it to Concordia as she was the only one I wasn't able to hear before coming here.

Yellow corrected herself the best she could. "I'm sor...I mean I apologize...I mean...heu...that lord Natural was asking you how the logistics behind it work. Like...how do you keep yourself alive?"

Oh...so he wants to learn to boring stuff. "Well I just use my power to replicate a normal nervous system, like making my arm think it received a signal from the brain to move, so it does. The good thing is that it allows for my body to survive even when I was riddled with injury and sickness...the problem is that I can't shut off the pain sensor as they are too connected to me to ignore them." I explained as I showcased my arm raising by itself.

I remember reading somewhere that we only used 10% of our brain, and I understand why, as I need to use 95% of it to constantly think of each action I need to do to maintain myself conscious and moving, the 5% that stay is used to think for myself, which just prove more how selfish I am, that I'm not even willing to give it all to my body because I still want to think.

"Is it painful?" Yellow asked in a worried tone.

"Well...I'm not sure, maybe it is, maybe it is not, but whatever it is, I've supported it since I was born, so I'm not able to tell. But if I am able to support it, then it must mean that if it is painful, then it is barely noticeable."

I heard Yellow push a sigh of relief, but my attention was immediately diverted to another matter.

"Then pardon me for my curiosity, but would you mind using it on me?" Natural suddenly asked in a wondering tone.