Psycho Mafia's Love

CHAPTER 43

NANON's eyelashes fluttered, his breathing uneven. A sharp pain clawed through his chest as flashes of her kidnapping blurred into her mind—darkness, locked doors, the suffocating weight of being powerless. He flinch out of his unconsciousness.

His eyes opened wide, getting panic—until his gaze landed on OHM.

He was sitting there, head bowed on the edge of the bed, his hand loosely wrapped around his. The sight froze her breath. For a moment, the nightmare loosened its grip. He stared, chest heaving, and slowly… he calmed down.But the storm inside didn’t fade.

Why him? he thought bitterly.
Why did it have to be OHM —The one who kidnapped me, the one who forced me to stay… yet the same one who treated me like I was someone precious? The same one who saved me from others far worse?

His heart twisted. OHM wasn’t supposed to be this complicated, He was supposed to be a monster, yet he had once been his first crush. He didn’t even know if what he felt now was love…? or just confusion he didn’t want to admit.

While he was thinking about his situation OHM moved his head. NANON Pretending to drift into sleep. he couldn’t face him yet. Not like this.

He slowly lifted his head, eyes red from sleepless nights. For a long moment, he just looked at NANON as if memorizing every detail. Then, thinking NANON was still unconscious, he whispered.

Nanon.... —His voice cracked, a softness that NANON had never heard before— if only you knew… how much I prayed for you to wake up.

He brushed his thumb gently over his hand.

I know I maybe hurt you. I know I forced you into my world when you didn’t deserve it. But even in my darkest days… you were the only light I wanted to protect.

He sighed shakily, forehead lowering to rest against his hand.

I don’t care if you hate me. Just… wake up... That’s all I ask.

NANON's s eyes stung, but he didn’t move. NANON kept his act of sleeping, ignoring the thunder inside heart, hearing OHM's words. His words were heavy, filled with a rawness he couldn’t ignore.

Is this love… or just madness?— NANON thought.
And why… why do I feel my heart answering him back?

OHM’s thumb lingered on NANON's hand, tracing the fragile veins. His tone stayed low.

You think I don’t know what I became, Nanon? —he murmured, eyes locked on her sleeping face.

A monster. A man who only knows how to take. I forced you to stay… I took away your freedom because I didn’t know another way to keep you near. —OHM was slowly admiting his all faults and the fact that monster he have become.

He laughed at his situation.

But do you know what terrified me the most? That even after everything… I still wanted you to see me. To see him..... the boy I used to be before this world poisoned me. I want to be the old self... —His voice cracked.

His fingers trembled as they brushed the hair from his forehead.

I still remember the voice when you last called my name...— His voice broke, softer now.

That voice has been haunting me. I can't anymore.... but I still remember that day when you looked at me with no fear.. but something deeper. Like I was more than just a mafia.

Flashback—

Wa... It's really so beautiful na..—his face was shining under the sunlight like an angel. NANON turned to OHM and the moment when NANON's smiled slowly disappeared and his eyes whipped at OHM. NANON'S lips slowly parted without realising.

—Flashback ended.

Ohm’s eyes glistened, his chest rising with sharp breaths. He bent closer, words spilling like a vow.

If I could turn back time, I’d give you everything— your freedom, your happiness, your choice. But I can’t. All I can do now is stay here… and fight for you, even if it means you’ll never forgive me...

He pressed his lips against the back of his hand, a kiss, but strong enough to make NANON's heart race.

Hate me, NANON. Curse me. But please wake up, don’t he like this... Not like this...

NANON's throat tightened as tears gathered at the corners of his eyes. He couldn’t let them fall— not yet. NANON's hand twitched, almost betraying him. Inside, his thoughts screamed.

He’s a criminal. He’s cruel. He took my life away.

But another voice, weaker yet persistent, whispered back.

He saved me. He stayed. And he loves me in a way no one ever did.

OHM finally pulled back, eyes stinging from the tears he hadn’t let fall in years for anyone except NANON. He quickly rubbed the corner of his eyes with the back of his hand.

The dull ache in his neck reminded him how long he’d been bent over, guarding NANON like a shadow. As if he let's go NANON's hand this time he would lost him forever. He reached toward the bedside table, his free hand fumbling for the small bottle of painkillers, which was close to finish. The pills rattled softly inside, an ordinary sound that somehow felt out of place in this room heavy with silence and secrets.

He popped one into his mouth, swallowing dry. A low toned laugh escaped him.

Look at me.... A tough mafia, afraid of losing his only Love in his sleep.

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By RG ♡♡

RG- sawadi thukorn na kha.. I know I was just like disappeared from months now... But it's just that I got so much pressure from the college na kha.. and now because I've finally got some time, here I'm writing the story's... And please kindly forgive me for not even telling you about the situation na kha..          .🌕🪷🌸

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