Troubled

Chapter two

Kate's pov

"Kate Hemmings, I love y-"

My alarm cut off my dream.

Dammit Ed sheeran was just about to tell me he loves me.

I huffed and got out of bed.

I walked into my bathroom and stripped down my clothing. I didn't dare look at my reflection in the mirror. I didn't feel like hurting myself right now. I'm much to tired for that.

I washed my body, shaved, washed my face and everything a girl needs to do to have good hygiene.

I got out of the shower did my make up applying eyeliner and mascara.

I slipped on my Ed sheeran hoodie, a pair of leggings and my all black high top converse and Walked out the door not forgetting to put on my black beanie over my short brown hair.

I walked through the city of London looking at the scenery.

The dark gloomy clouds in the sky are above me. It's always cold and rainy here in London. Everyone always thinks it's so great but really it's not. I don't understand why so many tourist like it really. I hate it. I hate it here. I wish I could leave. Well really I just hate my whole life. After I ran away from the adoption center I got a small job that payed enough to get me a small apartment. I didn't have much money after to pay the rent to buy a lot of other stuff like food. I hardly ever ate- and not just because I didn't have a lot of money. I'm not beautiful. I'm the ugliest fucking human being on earth. When I look in the mirror all I see is fat. It's never been different. It's so hard to be accepted in this world. Everyone judges you. I starve to create perfection.

You ask why I didn't live with my mom for those 2 years in the orphanage? Simple. I didn't want to. I was to ashamed. Good thing they couldn't even find her in Europe so I wouldn't have to live with her. She would want her messed up daughter.

I groan as it starts raining. Great. The one day I get out of my house it starts raining. Sort of expected though. It's London. All but some of the People of the London streets gathered inside. But of course for me, I've seen to atleast walk a mile or two away from home and didn't bring any money on me. Or even my phone. Dammit. Now I have to walk in the freezing cold, rainy streets home.
I grip the hoodie closer on my body trying to make any attempt at giving off more heat to my body but I soaked jacket all but seemed to make me colder.

Well isn't this fucking fantastic.

My teeth chartered as I walked.

I walked for atleast fifteen minutes before I started noticing the non familiar streets of where I was headed and saw the I was utterly lost. Most of the shops hav closed down by now because of the rain and lack of customers the weather had caused. And honestly I don't think they want a soaking wet girl in there store so why bother someone will just kick me out anyways.

I found a bench and sat down on it pulling my legs to my chest and my knees between my legs.

I chocked back a sob. I don't even know why I'm crying. Maybe because of my bad luck. Maybe because I'm worthless, maybe because of the stress and this adding to the situation but I just couldn't stop.

My body shakes as sobs raked through my body. I was beyond freezing now and I don't know what to do.

All I did was continue to cry and create warmth.

Six minutes later I feel a hand on my shoulder. I jump in surprise and try to take off running before a hand clasped onto my wrist and stopped me. I wince at the contact.

I try to get out of his hold but he pulls me into his chest and Rubs my back.

I pull away to see who it was and I see a nice curly hair lad.

"hey I'm sorry it looked like you could have used a hug. My god how long have you been out here? Your freezing! Are you okay. No obviously not."

My body was shaking hard as my knees felt week. I almost feel as the boy caught me and put me into his arms bridal style.
"Okay I honestly don't know what to do and I'm really nervous so I'm going to bring you back to my house that i share with my band mates. Oh my god why am I still talking we have to go! Oh and by the way my names Ashton" the nervous boy Ashton quick Let out and started running to where I assume is his house. I'm honestly really afraid I have no strength to even fight back out of his Arms. It's almost winter here so it's pretty cold. My eyes are clouding and it was getting hard to see as I blacking out. My sobs were dying down into simple sobs as Ashton ran.

We soon reached a big house and Ashton banged on the door with his foot trying to make me warmer but putting as much of his body against my to create body heat.

"ASHHYY YOUR BAC- WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED WHO IS THIS OH MY LORD WHATS GOING ON" a voice screamed

"Mike! I found her in the streets and she was crying and I don't know! What do I do!"

We went inside me still in his arms freezing my ass off. I concentrated on warmth as the people talked now I'm sure that there was more than 2 people in the room.

I opened my eyes as I was layed down on a bed.

I slip into darkness as I watch scrambled eyes and people freak out.

My body cold, my eyes feel like a hundred pounds are layed on top of them. I give in as my eyes closed to a shut hearing the men talk in worried voices.

Maybe this is my way out. And I didn't even cause it yet i am happy as could be.

HEY GUYS!! THIS WAS REALLY CRAPPY IM SORRY IM TIRED OKAY

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