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Meghan

"W-wait, you're leaving?" Nate stuttered with hurt clear in his voice.

"Yeah, we both are" I smiled, kissing Sammy's cheek.

"Oh, well, um- are you guys coming back?" he asked quietly.

"No, we're staying there for the rest of summer." I said excitedly.

"Oh- Um t-then I guess i'll see you at the start of school?" he questioned, once again stuttering.

We had graduated but we both got accepted into the same college, but I got accepted into a few more that's actually near Malibu.

"Actually, no. I changed my mind a few weeks ago. I'm going to college kind of close to here, and Sammy said I could stay with him, because he lives close. So therefore, no, i guess I won't be seeing you for a while. I was going to tell you sooner but...you know..." i trailed off. I know what I was saying was slowly killing him, but it's the truth, he didn't care, so neither do I.

Plus, I wouldn't be able to see him with Avery, although everyday, it's becoming easier and easier to get over him. I think I may be actually done with him, even though I'll miss my 'bestfriend'.

I could see pure anger, hurt, guilt, and probably every single other negative emotion one can feel.

He stood up and banged his fist on the table hard, and turned towards me more.

"You know what? I can deal with you being angry with me, I can deal with the fact you strongly dislike me  right now, I can deal with all that shit! You want to know why?"

"No, but you probs gonna tell me anyway" I joked taking a bite out of my muffin. Once I looked up, i quickly realized, 'shit fam, he ain't messin around' once i saw a VERY angry look in his eyes.

He took a few steps closer to me, and his voice got lower,
"I can deal with all that shit, because I know that even though we're having problems, I'll wake up and see you. See you, sitting around the house, or talking to the guys, or whatever you may be doing. And, even though we have problems and we've drifted, knowing that you are still here, around me, in front of me, keeps me grounded. But now, knowing that I may not see you till like our fucking high school reunion kills me!" he continued.

"That's the thing, Nate! You knew, we had problems, you knew we drifted, but not only did you not bother fixing it, you made it worse! You knew that you didn't have to make an effort because you knew I'd stay for you anyway, but now that you think you'll never see me again, you suddenly care?!" I yelled.

"I always cared." he replied sternly.

"On what fucking planet?" I yelled before grabbing Sammy and attempting to walk away.

"Excuse you, but you are the one who made it worse, you kissed him when you knew he didn't like you!" His girlfriend yelled, grabbing my arm.

"Okay, first off, I highly advise you to remove your hand before I do something to it out of anger." I said as she quickly yanked her arm away.

"Now, second of all, before you accuse me of that shit, how about acknowledge the fact, that he kissed me! Yeah, looks like we both don't really know who the real Nate is, huh?" I said before continuing upstairs.

*2 days later*

I had just gotten ready to head to the airport, last night me and Sammy said our goodbyes to Jack and Jack and he said his to Nate, but I had no desire of speaking to him.
Avery had went home because Nate said, 'he wanted to be alone'. We said our goodbyes last night because the Jacks had to go to the studio early today.

As we walked down, we saw Nate sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.

"I'll wait in the car" Sammy said walking out.

Nate looked up, once the door had shut and he saw me standing there.

That's when I noticed, he had been crying, a lot.

He stood up, slowly walking over to me and hesitating me before embracing me in a hug, as tears sped down his cheeks.

"Please don't go." He mumbled, barely audible.

"It's too late.

"Why?"

"Because Nate, I can't be here. It's too hard for me. You say you care, but you act so different when you're with your girlfriend. It's like she changed you but not in a good way. You don't even pretend to act as if you care, and to be honest, I don't want someone in my life, who treats me like I'm not important."

"You are important. You are SO important to me. I can't lose you."

"You already did."

"You can't leave, Meghan!" he yelled, sobbing.

"Why, Nate?! Give me one good reason!" I yelled with tears dripping down my face, as well.

"Because you're in love with me!" he yelled louder than I've ever heard him yell while angry, and uncontrollably sobbing.

I shook my head and looked down,

"I was in love with you. Not anymore" I choked out, as I saw him drop to his knees and rock back and forth.

I let out a few more tears before walking out the door. This is it.
I may never see him again.

a/n dont hate me, i know i havent updated in a while but i just didnt know what to write, AND NO THE STORY IS NOT OVER YET, its tooo early for that! ❤️ Love you guysss lotsss