after that, ellie said she had to go home.
she took a bus, and i let her.
was too stunned, too sad to say anything more.
not exactly for her nan, not even because i had cancer.
i would also die soon.
i couldn't imagine leaving my loved ones, too.
they're the ones who have to survive without.
but i'd never have to be left afraid i'd go alone.
my parents must live knowing their son will leave before.
and they still have to act normal, stick around...
of course ellie doesn't want to know me;
she's already in the final stages of losing somebody.
so i try to stay as far away from her as i can.
i don't see her at the hospital anymore.
it makes me scared that maybe she lost nan.
until i run into her at the grocery store.
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Historia Cortai ask, "what can i do?" she looks away. "what can anyone do? nothing. it happens, alex. people die everyday. people die. the rest live. life goes on. it's stupid and shitty and unfair. and i don't pity the dead, or the ones soon to join, but i'm jus...
