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F*ck Those Guys: Josh (+Jake?) 1

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When your relationship with one twin gets complicated by the other...
Multiple POV: you and Josh
Warnings: could potentially be seen as cheating, mental health struggles (really heavy on this one), fluff
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Your POV:
The moment Jake stepped out the door for the
second leg of his tour with Mirador, you were already missing him. As the days went by you grew more restless, not sleeping for days on end, and probably not taking care of yourself the way you should be. One day it got to the point you just broke down not knowing what to do. Sobbing, surrounded in piles of food wrappers and dirty clothes that had accumulated in your bedroom, you decided to get ahold of the one person you thought could give you any sort of comfort.
Josh, being Jake's twin had always been someone you were incredibly comfortable with, your best friend even. Jake always loved how you two got along and trusted that he could support you and show you he cared in times like these. You picked up your phone and sent him a text hoping that he would be up at this hour.
Are you up?
☀️yeah, everything okay?
sorry to bother you
☀️You're not bothering me,
what's up?
Just can't sleep.
☀️I'll be over in 15.

You dropped your phone in a panic, looking at the mess around you. You scrambled to clean up before trying to make yourself appear less like a raccoon that frequented dumpsters. While pulling your shirt over your head, fortunately, slightly less disgusting looking, the doorbell rang.
You raced down the stairs and opened the door.
"Holy fuck y/n. What's wrong. I'm sorry but you look like shit." Oh. So maybe the de-raccooning hadn't worked. "I just-..." You broke down sobbing as Josh walked inside, pulling you into a hug. "Hey hey hey, deep breath for me y/n, alright? Let's get you calmed down a little and then you can tell me what's wrong." He led you to sit down on the couch where he decided to give you space by sitting at the other end. Seeing him so far away just made you want him closer, comforting you, holding you in his arms. But in the state you were in you found no room in your thoughts to say or do anything of the sort.
"Are you good now, y/n?" Josh snapped you out of your thoughts. "I'm...um...okay...l think..." you start. "Can you tell me what's wrong, sweetheart?" Sweetheart. You thought back to the last few days. Not only the half empty bed and wasting your days sulking, but also your growing feelings for a certain someone that you had discovered while sitting alone with your thoughts.
You would never want to betray Jake or cheat on him or anything like that but Josh was just too similar to not have feelings for him, truly his twin in every sense of the word. In fact, you and Jake had talked about this before. He did say that if it ever came up he would be willing to let you explore any feelings you had for Josh. You also had heard rumors that they liked "sharing" in the past. "Y/n?" Josh once again snapped you out of your thoughts
"I think you need some sleep, you're clearly exhausted." You nodded. "Can you at least try to tell me what's wrong before we get you to sleep?" He asked. You nodded again before starting, "It's just so hard to sleep without Jake, and l've been a mess, and I haven't slept in days, and I don't know how to be alone, and I have all these thoughts and feelings that are just new, and-." Josh stopped you. "Woah there sweetheart, slow down." "Sorry" you say under your breath "there's no need to be sorry y/n, you're having a hard time aren't you, can I stay with you tonight, maybe that would help?"
Your heart dropped. Would it help? Or would it just leave you wanting him more when Jake wasn't even here or available to talk about this so it could be done in a way that wouldn't hurt anyone. Either way, it would be nice to have a better chance at finally sleeping. You nodded at his question. "Um I can sleep on the floor and you can have my bed." you say. He giggles a little and then replies, "don't be silly we can both sleep in the bed, we can put pillows between us or anything that would make you more comfortable." You sigh. "No no, it's okay, you're right we're adults and friends so I don't see why we couldn't just sleep next to each other in a bed."
You almost gasped at your own words. How could you say something like that when you knew that what you felt was the complete opposite.
You led Josh up to your room. "Jake usually sleeps on the right side." You say as Josh starts taking off his socks, still in his sweatpants and a t-shirt. He smiles at you gently and waits for you to be completely ready for bed before taking a spot on the right side. Going to bed with Josh feels uneventful, especially when you both just say goodnight and roll over to face away from each other.

Josh's POV:
Lying next to y/n felt unreal. It also felt awkward. Why did I have to make it this way. I know she's with my brother but then again, we did have a conversation about letting her "explore" if she wanted to. Whatever that means. I would do anything to get close to her but while I'm in the bed that her and my brother share, I wouldn't dare do anything irrational. I also would never want her to feel uncomfortable, that's why I decided to face away from her the moment | got in bed. To not think about touching her...what I heard in my head. But because I love my brother... and her...is what I heard from my heart.

Your POV:
You fell asleep at one point. You didn't know when. Looking at the clock you saw that it was currently 3:45 in the morning. You rolled over and audibly gasped, forgetting, and then realizing that Josh was there. Suddenly you started to get emotional. Why couldn't you just love more than one person. Some people do that. The only people you could think of were very bad people, but still...
This time you snap yourself out of your own thoughts, realizing that there are tears streaming down your face, stinging your eyes, and forcing you to make noise that you so desperately did not want to make in order to not wake Josh.
Josh stirred in his sleep as you lost all control of your emotions and violently started to shake him awake. Josh loudly gasped and shot up in bed, "y/ n?! What's wrong?!" He looked at the state you were in. "Come on sweetheart, talk to me." You didn't want to talk and he could see that. Instead of forcing you to talk, he pulled you into his chest, stroking your hair, and whispering sweet words like like, "you're okay" and "it's going to be alright" He pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head which made you look up at him. "Im sorry" he says. "For what" you say finally breaking your silence. "For kissing you like that, I know it wasn't really anything but Jake-....." you interrupt him, "no don't apologize that was really sweet I liked it" Josh adds "you know what, it was, and tonight you obviously need that." He looked into your eyes for a couple seconds before you grabbed his face, pulling it to yours and capturing his mouth with your own.
Josh pulled away with wide eyes before giggling,
"I think we really need to talk to Jake "Um yeah maybe" you join in with his giggling.
When all of your thoughts are shared and you kiss him one more time, you drift off to sleep on Josh's chest and remain that way peacefully until you awake the following day, well rested for the first time in weeks.
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End.
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Sorry if that one was boring, but it's necessary for context in the rest of the series (which I PROMISE will NOT involve twincest)