Broken

Chapter 4

Arial P.O.V

I laid on Zayn's bed as he asked me to, he laid half his upper body on me his arms wrapped around my lower stomach and my lower back I bet he feels comfy "don't mind him he acts mad when he is sleepy" Liam told me

I nodded it did not bother me at all to be honest ;on the contrary he made me feel happy, someone wanted me around. the fact that these boys even bear looking at me means so much to me since mom died no one ever wanted me around even my best friend who I thought was my best friend ditched me and my boyfriend as well oh that did really hurt it still does hurt

I wanted the people close to me to support me and hold me and tell me its not over yet but all they did was abandon me in the middle of nowhere and let the demons inside me kill me slowly not that I deserved to live I guess am paying for what I have done 8 months ago.

"am I crushing you?"Zayn's muffled voice intubated my thoughts.well he was a little bit and especially the cuts in my thighs he pressed on them making it sting a little but of course I would never tell him that "no" I said slowly I drifted to sleep myself

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"mom?? What are you doing here I thought you were died??"

Mom looked at me giving me death glares "am died because of you Arial ;its all because of you, should have been you Arial" mom screamed
"no, mom am sorry I did not mean it, I did not want you to get hurt" I said crying

"I will never forgive you Arial" mom shouted running away

"no" I shouted waking up.

it was a nightmare again I looked around everyone was a sleep thankfully I did not wake anyone up even Zayn who was still laying on me he looked so peaceful a sleep. There was a bottle of water beside me; I took a sip from it and slept again.

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I woke up from the beeping sound that won't stop I opened my eyes looking around Lou was fixing Harry's hair and Zayn was still a sleep man that boy can sleep under any conditions no matter what.

Liam and Louis were playing on the PlayStation ,i think, and Niall was eating with one hand while holding his phone with the other, my stomach groaned as I remembered I might not have eaten anything in the past few hours, and by that I mean maybe days , I did not even eat when I sat around with the boys I wanted to get up but could not ask Zayn to move.

I thought that would be so rude of me "good morning" Harry greeted "morning " I greeted back "slept well dear" Lou asked

"yeah thank you" I replied "Zayn get your ass up" Harry shouted Zayn got up probably freaked the hair out of him I wanted to giggle at how much terrified he looked right now "what.... what ..... what happened?!?!? " Zayn asked

"nothing babe have some more sleep" Harry said in a girly girl voice "oh okay" Zayn said about to sleep again

"Zayn you crushed Arial all night have some common sense " Harry shouted making Lou laugh at them "yeah. .. yeah... sorry Ari" Zayn said I loved how he used my nickname Tiff use to call me that.

Oh who is Tiff you might be asking, well she use to be my best friend, until that day.

"morning" Zayn said shuffling his hair "morning" I replied

"lets go you guys; early photo-shoot, who is ready to take some pictures ay" Paul came asking Zayn groaned "I will treat with Mac breakfast you guys had breakfast yet?" Paul asked

"of course you did why am I even asking doubt it you had enough thou" Paul said looking at Niall. Niall laughed "Pauly you know it maybe you should adopt me" Niall said making me giggle.

My hand immediately flew to my mouth to stop the very irritating sound. "Don't do that you have a  pretty laugh" Harry said getting up from the seat he was sat at.

I looked at him questioning whether he is in his right mind or not "excuse me!!"

"what its true" Harry said I shook my head getting out of bed hopefully I don't look like a monster who am I kidding I am one "I agree" Niall said I turned to look at him wide eyes mood on

"those who say Ari has a cute laugh say I" Harry said a hurricane of "I"s was said I starred in Ahww at these kind people, but part of me knew it was not true. "thank you guys" I said

"wanna hear more of it then" Louis said I smiled at him weakly and went to the bathroom for the first time in months am actually entering the bathroom to have a genuine bath which normal people take I have kind of made it habit to take blood bathes ever since I came back from Rehab. I stripped down my clothes then turned the water on determined to wash my body and hair thoroughly as I think have not done that in about ....... since I first pumped into the boys.

Am in such a cool mood today those small acts of kinds these people take the time to make ... just makes me jump to cloud nine.

And since kind gestures had been officially terminated from my life .... am very miserable.

AS IF THAT IS NOT OBVIOUS ARIAL. STUPID ... BUT THAT IS WHY YOU ARE LIVING YOU DESERVE TO BE MISERABLE.

YOU DID TERRIBLE STUFF REMEMBER???

I am uploading now chapter 4 because I am going on holiday foe the coming whole week wont have WiFi so consider this Monday's part will upload-later so keep tuned

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