Broken

chapter 11

Arial P.O.V

Liam woke everyone up early in the morning he would not dare to wake Louise up though, cause then you will have to deal with a fresh morning Lux mood not so nice.

Not to mention Zayn to be honest I felt sorry for almost everyone.

"She is not my girlfriend why do I have to go pick her up before my breakfast" Naill groaned.

<at least he got a point> I laughed inside just from the way he said it was really funny.

"Because she is my girlfriend. I have to look good. My friends should behave now get dressed and stop nagging you are coming whether you like it or not Horan" Liam told him leaving no place for argument.

My mind rewind back to the day I meet Eleanor which was only 2 days ago which also did not go very smooth. I just hope this time it will go really fast and less painful.

I made it my number 1 priority to convince the boys that I will be staying in the van, Paul thankfully agreed saying that it is for the best and 2 of the boys should stay with me as well so Zayn was already paseed out a sleep in the car and Niall made it clear he is staying earning a glare from Liam.

"Are you okay Ari?" Niall asked after a while "I am fine " I said.

"You can tell me anything you know" he insisted. "Okay I am fine really" I said, taking my sketch and drawing I stayed silent for a little while just vaguely matching patterns.

"I am scared" I suddenly blurred not taking my eyes off of what I was drawing "I feel so bad idk what to do anymore this feeling is the same exact feeling I had - I" stopped not wanting to continue as my tongue almost slipped.

"Do you ever just feel like no one cares about you whether you stay or leave, sick or healthy, happy or sad, like no body cares if you are lonely or depressed, its like I am so left out.." I ended

"Niall are you-" I stopped, turning my head to him, when I saw that he was looking back at me actually listening to what I was saying I wanted to actually ask him if he heard me. To my surprise he was.

Niall lifted his hands up I closed my eyes afraid of the motion, how stupid of me I knew he would not hurt me yet I did.

I  felt soft hands on my cheek I opened my eyes Niall flicked the tears that had built up I had not even realized I was crying.

"Sorry" I said feeling rather stupid breaking in front of him; yet again, thankfully, Zayn did not wake up or maybe he was just pretending to be a sleep.
Which was very likely.

"Don't apologize Ari" he said I looked the other way smiling stupidly at what just happened. "Anyways that was just plain crap" I started

"No it was not, and yeah I felt that way a while ago but I just learned from the boys that no matter how few the people who care for you are, you better appreciate it cause they are everything that someone can wish for no matter how small their act of love is they might not tell it or say to you but they will show it in small little stuff that you even might not notice.
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ou just have to keep your eyes wide open. And eventually it's a passing period, Ed once told me that things will get better at the end, if not then its not the end.