boarding school (PHANFICTION)

the bomb exploads

A/N hey so sorry it took so long to get this chapter out but I kept re-writing it Lol enjoy! Contains extreme alcohol use.
Dan's POV
I took a shower and let the cold water drown all of my despair.
I didn't want to eat in the cafeteria so I took my breakfast up to my room and ate alone with no bother from any one (Conner)
I sat in the dorm all day playing video games and watching anime ,doing nothing productive but eat because is was Saturday so why not.
I slept in Phil's bed witch I had been doing for last 3 days because I miss him so much.
I lied down on the top bunk that smelt so heavenly of Phil when there was a knock on the door.
I quickly jumped down off of the bunk and ran to the door.
"oh hello Daniel" said mrs.Nicole the mistress that helped with Angus and she was crying.
"I am hear to inform you that your room mate will not be coming so you and the other boy will have the room to your selves"
"Wait which room mate!!" I said getting worried for Phil.
she closed her eyes for a moment so the tears didn't start to fall harder.
"Angus" she looked away.
"oh I'm sorry...what..." I said smiling in side at the fact that Phil was coming back and we would have the dorm to our selves.
"He has been sent home because of the incident that happened"
Mrs.Nicole was young probably only a few years older then me so I trusted her and I think she trusted me back.
"And now because he is leaving in loosing my job...oh I'm sorry I wasn't supposed to say anything" she looked away again in shame.
"oh no it's fine I won't tell" I said with a small but comforting smile.
"really?..promise?..Thank you!"
she yelled hugging me.
"um welcome?" I said awkwardly.
"I've got to go see ya around"
she said almost in a flirty kind of way.
gross I thought as I shut the door and lied back down on Phil's bed.
I am in love with phil so never mind that weirdo and her flirty female ways
I laughed to my self.
***
I woke at 7:30am and danced around the dorm with Kpop blasting as I got ready for the excellent day that awaited.
I literally skipped down the corridors past the huge sign that said 3 weeks left of school! because I didn't care what people thought.
When I got to the hospital Mrs.nundey
led me to the bed with phil in it.
"you made great timing he hasn't woken up yet but we expect he will soon"
she said in her intense Scottish accent before  walking in to a back room.
I stared at phil, his face was emotionless, his skin was pale and cold.
He looked so dead and used, he was hooked up to a million different machines that seemed to look very uncomfortable to have attached to you.
I looked down at his arm,It was scratched and torn apart horribly.
I grabbed his freezing cold dead hand and started to quietly let the tears flow.
He opened his glimmering blue eyes moments later and my tears became happy tears.
"Dan what's wrong?" he said weak
"nothing phil Im just in love you"
I said while rubbing his hand.
He smiled and took in a deep breath.
"when can I come home?"
"not tomorrow but the next day"
I said as if I was explaining it to a kid.
"oh...and how long have I been in out for?" he asked.
"3 days"
Mrs.nundey walked back in.
"ahhh Mr.Lester I see you are awake"
"yeah" phil said through his smile.
"alright then I do just want to talk to Dan for a moment out side as I assume he is your roommates yes?"
"uhh ya" Phil said looking confused and worried so I mouthed it's fine with a wink and walked out in to the corridor with Mrs.Nundey.
"so Daniel I know this might be a lot to take in but Mr.lester will not be able to go back to the dorm with you"
"what why?" I said irritated
"well Mr.lester will have to be put in a psych-ward for a little while as this has been the 5th time he has ended in the hospital because of self-harm and is now considered a danger to him self and others but don't worry as he will be put in to the schools own ward and you can visit him through the class any time" she said smiling sweetly.
"what no! Phil is perfectly fine and under my control he will never have access to any sharp objects or anything that could hurt him what so ever and..."
I said speaking a million words a minute while also trying to hold back tears.
"Mr.howell something's are just out of your control and you must learn to cope with that or..."she trailed off.
"how long does he have to stay in there?" I mumbled in defeat.
"3 weeks until school ends"
"when dose he leave?"
"3 days so if you want to spend time with him before he dose I suppose you should do it now"
I glared deeply at her and walked back over to Phil.
"what was that about is every thing ok?" Phil question.
"fine...whatever just I...never mind it"
"Dan are you sure... your ok?"
"yes phil I'm fine now stop worrying about it!" I snapped.
I felt horrible for raising my voice on Phil , he just looked down and it became silent for a moment.
"I'm sorry"
"for what no phil I'm sorry"
he smiled then excitedly replied
"I'm so excited to go back to the dorm"
"umm phil you...your not coming back to the dorm any more"
"w-what Dan what are you on about"
"Phil they think your insane...there putting you in there psych-ward"
"but...but Dan I'm not!" "you can't let them!" Phil confessed letting a tear roll down his cheek.
"Phil I..."
"no Dan it's fine I knew you didn't mean it that night when you said you'll never leave again"
"no! Phil I'm not leaving I'll visit you every day!"
"yeah yeah whatever just go Dan you probably have something better to do then sit hear and give un-needed pity"
"Phil please!"
"go and don't bother coming back!!"
I ran out as fast as I could up to our (correction : my) dorm.
I sat in the corner of the room and cried for about a half hour until I remembered the left over Moonshine in the cupboard from when Conner made us play that drinking game along time ago.
I quickly got up and opened the metal lid.I smelt in first and it burned my nose with a horrible smell signifying that it had definitely gone bad.
I pressed my lips to the glass jar and thought for a moment,I thought about my mom and her racist and judgemental ways,my dad and how he abused me every night when he came home drunk and every day he wasn't ,witch very rarely my father wasn't drunk,
I thought about me and my brother hiding from our parents when they fought witch was pretty much every day we got home from school, I thought about me and Conner controlling the school because everyone else was afraid of us,dumping girls like they were garbage, pushing around the smaller kids.And then I thought of Phil my love the only one who loved me back and how I just discarded him and how he then started to hurt himself and ended up in the hospital all because of me.
I opened my eyes and took a sip.
it tasted horrible but I kept drinking it as a punishment to my self.
soon I was drunk and I didn't feel the pain any more.I lied down on to Phil's bed and slipped in to my dreaming state.
A/N lol ok so I hoped you enjoyed this even longer chapter 😆 and I actually wrote this on a boat so sorry if it makes no sense but I'm to lazy to do corrections BYEEE