Alessia

that girl

I woke up in my room that Friday and stood up. I had a few bruises from yesterday. My ankle hurt from jumping out of Taylor's window. I limped to my closet and took off all of my clothes. I slipped on plain black underwear and my plain black bra. I slipped on ripped acid washed jeans, a dark green V-neck crop top, and white converse high tops. I put on my two gold triangle necklaces and double wrap and braided brown leather bracelets. I straightened my hair and put on my white fluffball beanie. I filled in my eyebrows, tightlined my eyes, and put on chapstick. I curled my eyelashes and applied mascara. I put my moschino teddy bear phone case on my phone. I grabbed my backpack and put my gym clothes in it. I slung it over my shoulder. I limped out of my room and down the stairs. The pain within my foot was excruciating. I fell on the last step of my stairs. I stood up and walked to the medical closet. I grabbed a ankle cast with a built in cooling gel pack. I sat down taking off my shoe. I put on the small cast and put my shoes back on. As soon as I stood up my ankle felt better but I still had a limp. I grabbed my car keys and walked out to my car. I climbed in putting my backpack in the passenger seat. I started up my car and started driving to school, ugh. I hummed along to G-Eazy as I got closer and closer to the school. I soon arrived and parked. The guys stood in the court yard looking at my car. I turned off my car and opened my door. I slung my backpack over my shoulder and climbed out of the car. I closed the door and walked up to the pathway. I limped the entire way. I walked along the pathway while the guys whispered. I turned and looked at them with soft lonely eyes. I walked over not bothering to limp. "Nash can I talk to you" I spoke softly. He looked surprised by my soft voice but nodded. We walked a little ways away under a tree. "Can you promise me something" I whispered. He looked confused and curious. "Did you see me after the gym the other day. I think I saw you" I said with a lump in my throat. "I know you really messed up last night with your friends, but I'm curious. Who was that guy" he asked. "I knew him from" I said but my voice cracked. I didn't want to tell him because I knew I did mess up, bad. But suddenly the whole story came pouring out of my mouth before I could close it. My voice was soft and tears rolled down my face. My voice kept cracking and the lump in my throat kept fighting my voice. I was glad my makeup was water proof. "Please don't tell anyone. Promise me Nash" I croaked weakly. I put my hands of my face crying. Suddenly he pulled me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me. I sobbed into Nash's chest feeling a little bit better. He stroked my hair mumbling "It's going to be okay". "Why are you being so nice to me?" I whispered. There was silence for a moment but only a moment. "Because you messed up, and you really messed up. It doesn't mean I don't forgive you, because I do. I'm not one to hold grudges and I don't feel like starting now." He spoke. "I'm sorry. I really am" I spoke looking into his eyes. "I believe you" he said wiping my tears with his thumbs. I smiled weakly up at him and he smiled back. "Please don't tell the boys anything, please Nash" I mumbled. "Don't worry" he smiled. "Now let's get you to class" he said wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I smiled up at him as we walked off the boys staring. Carter walked over angrily and we stopped. I looked down nervously as he stopped in front of us. "What are you doing" Carter spit. "Walking Alessia to class" Nash answered surprisingly confident. "Do you know what she did Nash. She broke into our house and vandalized it" he said angrily. "I know she's got guts" Nash said. I looked up with a small smile. We took two steps towards the school. Suddenly Carter yanked my arm back. "Your going to regret all of this" he whispered in my ear so Nash couldn't hear. I watched nervously as he walked to the boys. I looked at the boys hurt and terrified. My mouth was slightly propped open as my lip quivered. I hadn't noticed Nash talking to me and looking at me. "W-what?" I said looking at him. "I asked what did Carter say. It looked like it got to you." Nash asked. "Nothing" I spoke walking forward trying to change the subject. "You know I like the name Nash. It's a nice name. I also like the name Tate or Jessica. Those are nice names right. I had a friend in Spain named Jessica she had a little sister named Allie" I spoke fastly trying to get to a new subject. "Alessia what did he say" Nash said in a protective voice. "It's nothing, no big deal" I shrugged. Nash saw right through my act. "He said that he'll make me regret all of this" I spoke. Nash turned and started to walk towards the boys angrily. I ran and grabbed his arm. He didn't stop at first but I said "Nash I mess everything up. It's what I do. I just don't want to mess up your friendship so go and hang out with them happily. Just do it for me" I said looking deeply into his eyes. I ran off leaving him to be with the boys. I went inside and went straight to class just as the Bell rang. I had this class with Nate and the Jack's. I walked in and fell back once someone elbowed my ribcage. "Watch where your going sl**" Nate said towering over me. "Sorry" I mumbled sadly. I ran to the back of the classroom. Class soon started and the teacher went on about some Spanish project. "Alessia and the Jack's, you'll be working together" the teacher spoke. My stomach dropped and I heard them grunt. After a few minutes of explaining the project he said to get to work. I wanted to move but I was frozen in my chair. The Jack's walked over angrily. "I'll do all the work and you guys just put your names on the paper" I mumbled. "Good" Gilinsky said knocking all my things off my desk and the two walked away. I picked up my things and got to work. By the end of class I had written six pages, they were good too. I stood up clutching my books and binder to my chest. I walked but Mr.Scott, my Spanish teacher stopped me. "Alessia your doing a great job in this class so I expect a good report from you at least" he smiled. I nodded and walked out and into the busy school hallway. The warning bell rang for second period. I hurried to class and sat down. I took notes and did my work for the next few periods. By lunchtime I was tired and was waiting for school to end. I just wanted to go to the Clippers game with Justin. I walked out of the school and to the less busy courtyard. I walked over and sat under a tree with my back against it. I put my backpack and things next to me. I crossed my legs and continued to do my homework. "So the New Girl is a loner" a voice towered over me. I looked up to see the most popular guy in school, Cody Jason. He was attractive but cocky and a bit overly sarcastic. I stayed quiet chewing on my bottom lip trying to focus on my work. "You mute because it didn't seem like that on the first day of school" he smirked. "No I just want to leave me alone" I answered. "You sure about that babe" he spoke wearing a cocky smirk. "I know your game Cody. You pretend to like girls to sleep with them then dump them. And they fall for it even if they know your game. Because every good girl wants to be the one to change the player for the better. It's very cliche in my opinion but it happens. And Cody I just happen to be the one girl in school who knows that no matter what it's always the same ending. The girl gets dumped and the guy moves on. But I'm no game Cody, I'm a girl. And yes I'm confusing, and awkward, and weird, but I'm not meant to be played." I spoke to him calmly. "I think that's the smartest thing I've heard any of the girls from this school say. So I'm going to give up my chances of sleeping with you. But how about friends cause I need someone who can give me lady advice." He spoke sitting down across from me. "Don't you have a sister" I said rolling my eyes. "Yeah but she's eight so that doesn't work" he said. "Fine what do you need help with" I spoke sighing. "Do girls like certain flowers or what cause I'm still confused" he said. "Well it depends on the girl. And in order to find out that would require actually caring about the girl" I spoke. "Roses and daisies can work" he said. "Oh and be careful about certain subjects. Such as looks, weight, grades, family, opinions, basically everything actually" I said. "So if I said you looked like a sl** would that be rude" he said. "Normally yes but that's all I've heard today so." I spoke. "You don't look like a sl**" Cody said to me. He was obviously trying to play his game through the whole time. I picked up my things and stood up. "Nice attempt to play the game. But I'm not a game so you may want to move on" I said and walked off. "How did you know" he yelled to me across the court yard. "Some players are just to easy to read and you had bold printing" I yelled. I walked inside just as fifth period bell rang. I continued my classes until the end of the day. By the end of the day I was tired and worn out. I piled my things into my backpack quickly. I walked through the hallway smushed between people. I finally walked through the doors into the crisp autumn air. I walked down the sidewalk, the guys burning holes through my skin. Suddenly I was pushed onto the ground, landing harshly on my chest. I groaned and rolled over as it was slightly silent in the courtyard now. My body hurt as I stood up rubbing my shoulder. I was now facing Vanessa Smith, the most popular girl in school. Her hand perched on her hip and a smirk plastered on her face. I dusted off my jeans then stopped. "Well what do we have here the sl** of the school. As Carter, Nate, The Jack's, Taylor, and Aaron told me. Apparently Alessia tried to sleep with all the boys and didn't understand what it means to be rejected. So she tried to force them. Now that's pathetic" she spoke in her sarcastic and annoying voice. "What?" I whispered weakly. I knew it wasn't true, the boys knew, most people knew. But Vanessa always wins and no one wants to stand up to her. My lip quivered and tears swallowed in my eyes. My stomach had dropped and my heart was cracking. Laughs of the students slowly trailed around me. I looked at the boys as tears ran down my cheeks. My phone vibrated and I pulled it out of my pocket. I looked at the message and read it. Justin said the Clippers thing couldn't happen tonight. I slid my phone in my pocket sadly. The laughs got louder and the rumors had already started. My breaths were thin and short. "I'm not a sl**. That's not true they're lying" I spoke with fire in my chest. "Oh really" she laughed at me. "It's not true I swear" I spoke louder. "Boys is it true" Vanessa called to them. "She sure is a sl** I would know" Nate called while the boys nodded. "Stop lying please" I called to them in tears. "Face it Alessia you don't belong here. No one wants you" he said and I stood there. People left and walked by calling things. My eyes were red while I held my hands over my mouth. My sobs were quiet and soft through my hands. Soon it was only the boys and I in the courtyard. Nash and Matthew were gone at football practice. While Shawn and Cameron waited on them in the bleachers. "You know I told Nash to leave me, I'm doing the whole Spanish assignment, I was going to pay for your phones and the damage, I was gonna write some damn good apology letters that I meant too. I was going to do all I could to try and make the situation better. Because I felt terrible after what I did, I was sick and I didn't know my crew was going to do so much damage. I did what I did in Taylor's room because I didn't want you dragged into my problems. If someone knew that you knew what crew I was in would kill me and all of you without a trace. " I said. The boys were quiet now. "And you know what, I will still do those things because no matter how terrible what you did is, I will stay angry at myself until I do" I spoke. Nate reached his arm out and I cowered and said "I'm sorry". "Your still a worthless sl**" Carter said. "I know" I said to him in a whisper. The boys gave me odd expressions except for Carter. "If you want a sl** I'll show you a sl**" I said with a smirk. "See you later boys" I said walking to my car. I climbed in and started it up. I put on my seat belt and drove home.

"If they want a sl** that's what they'll get" I spoke parking in my driveway.