Deadly Desire In Midnight City

Chapter 10 Deadly Desire

[[WARNING: This chapter has sexual content in it, vivid images will be used and described.]]

~Allison~

I feel Nate holding onto my waist, pulling me closer to him. But I don't mind it, in fact, I love it. Ever since Nate leaned in to kiss me, my whole body has gone numb with pleasure and desire. Right now, I don't care what he is, or his destiny. All I know is that I've never wanted to make love to someone before. Not until tonight.

I lean in more, and bite his lip gently, giving it a light tug. And he groans in response. All this hunger, we both had it inside of us and we were completely blind, or.. In denial. But we both know, there's no more time to hide this. It's now or never.

Nate grabs onto my wrists and lays back onto the bed while I'm seated on his lap. I look down at him with a flustered face, unsure of what he wants me to do. In my mind, I know exactly  what I crave for. But I want to know his thoughts, if he's enjoying this or not. And most importantly, whose going to take the lead on this.

"Nate.." I say while panting. I hadn't even noticed I was out of breath. I see him open his mouth to speak, but he chooses to nod his head instead. I take a deep breath, trying to relax before I continue. "Where is this headed.. What do you want me to do?" I ask nervously. I see his cheeks glow red, and he looks away from me. I almost begin to panic, thinking maybe I've done something wrong. Should I have kept my mouth quiet and let things just, happen?

But when I see him smile at me shyly, all my nerves melt away. "Do whatever you want to me.." He says in a hushed voice. At that point, I feel my hormones raging all over the place down south. I have to bite my lip in order to not laugh nervously. A million things race through my head, not sure of what to do. I've never done anything like this.

My only sexual experience was with... "Ally, what's wrong?" What? But that's when I feel it. A tear sliding down my cheek. "Oh no.." I say while going to wipe it away from my face. And when Nate pulls me off his lap and sits down next to me, I feel so much guilt and stupidity wash over me. "No, Nate why did you do that? We don't have to stop!" I put my hands on his shoulder, trying to get him to lay back down. But it's to no avail.

"Allison, I'm not going to keep on when you're crying.. Tell me what's on your mind, this can wait. Nothing is ruined so relax, I just want to make sure you're okay.. It wouldn't feel right for me to keep on when you're obviously upset over something." I look down to the floor, humiliated and unable to speak. How was I supposed to explain this to Nate? He is wrong, everything is ruined. I overthought the situation and it was a horrid mistake.

All off a sudden, I feel him grab hold of my hand, with his fingers intertwining in mine. I look up at him, and see pain written all over his face. "It's okay Allison, I'm here for you." He merely whispers. At this, I take a deep breath and relax my tense body. I know that this will be embarrassing, but if I trust Nate with my life, and I do, then I should be able to tell him anything.

"I just, I-" Before I know it, I need to take a deep breath or I know I'd choke in my tears. But when Nate squeezes my hand and gives me a reassuring smile, I end up being able to find my words again. "You're just.. The first guy I've ever done this type of stuff with.. And, I don't know how to go about the situation.. I don't want to embarrass myself."

I look over at Nate, and see his eyes open wide, which begins to scare me. "Nate.. What is it?" I ask, and he begins to shake his head. "How could you not be experienced? I mean, not that there's anything wrong with it, but you're stunning.. How is that even possible?" I feel my cheeks burning red and my whole body turning warm. But then when I realize the answer to his question, all the color drains from my face.