Someone like you<3

Meomories

"Hey honey!" My mom's voice sounded of joy. But i felt no joy. I felt: anger, hate, i felt evil! I rolled my eyes and replied.

"Hello?" I said with little emotion.

"How you been?"  she asked.

"Fine."

"Oh ok.. i missed you!"

"Cool."

The conversation got quite. before she said anything else i went over to the couch to have a seat.

"Well I'm in rehab." She said out of the blue.

"Should have went a long time ago." i mumbled.

"Lex, honey I'm sorry that i couldn't give you the life that you wanted to have..."

I said nothing. Her apology didn't mean nothing to me. I was too late to apologies.

"I knew you wouldn't forgive, but I'm getting out rehab in 2 weeks and i was wondering if you can come and visit?" She asked.

"No thanks mom I'm fine here."

"Well actually honey its not choice because i had already got the ticket for you."

"How? You ain't even got no money and i don't have no body to take care of my baby while im gone."

"How you know what i got, just know that you and that baby are coming and that's final."

"Whatever." I replied rolling my eyes and blowing my breath.

"Don't you what ever me! I'm still your momma, i gave birth to you and just because you in another state don't mean that i wont slap the piss out of you. Now i have been nice for the majority of this conversation but to hear you disrespect me hurts--" I can hear her sniffle a bit. "It hurts Lexi, you are my baby and i love you."

"Then why'd you treat me the way you dead."

"i was young.. i.. i was young and foolish, i should have sent you off to your father and I'm sorry." I wanted to cry but i couldn't. The pain of her basically letting me get raped hurt.

"Honey we can talk about this when you come out."

"Alright."

"I gotta go, tell everyone god bless them, and i love them and please give my grand baby a kiss for me please."

"i will."

"I love you and happy birthday."

It took everything in me to reply back the L word. "Love you too and thank you." i said with a huge gulp.

I hung up the phone and slammed it on the living room table. I slowly got up and rushed to my room. Hearing my mom's voice tore me up inside. I opened my door and plopped down on the bed. Corahyn was sound asleep in her bassinet and Langston had plopped down next to me.

"You alright?" He asked rubbing my thigh.

"Yes, im fine." I replied back with my hand over my forehead.

"I crazy isn't it?"

"Whats crazy?"

"How she just called out of the blue."

"Yeah its kind of weird.. but i don't want to go out there just to see her." I said.

"But you have to.. you have to for give in forget."

I was so tired of people telling me to forgive and forget! I got up began to feel the steam rise up.

"IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING TO FORGIVE AND FORGET! YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I HAD TO GO THROUGH EVERY MOTHER FUCKING DAY! TURNING INTO A WOMEN ON THE DAY I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A TEEN. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH SHE HAS HURT ME. I HAD NO FUCKING CHILDHOOD AND I NEVER WILL-- AND I.. AND I--" I began to break down into anger. Banging on the walls and punching the door. I blacked out. All i can remember is Lang holding me in his arms telling me everything is going to be fine. Seat dripped off of my forehead and my heart was beating rapidly. His wet, juicy lips kissed my forehead as he whispered to me that everything was going to be alright and that he was here for me. My eyes slowly closed and I layed on the bed safe in his arms.