clementine

09 | be kind to yourself

queen clementine: guess what :)))))

king louis: hmm?

queen clementine: i got a tattoo :))))))

queen clementine: ive been saving up for it for a long time im so happy !!!!!

king louis: aww thats cute of what ??

queen clementine: its wrapped up currently and the guy said i should leave it there for a while but it stays "be kind to yourself" :))))

king louis: any reason for getting it ??

queen clementine: will you promise not to judge or laugh or anything if i tell you?

king louis: course :)

queen clementine: well

queen clementine: i got it bc i get rly down sometimes and i tend to put myself down a lot and i get anxiety attacks sometimes and its rare that i do but when it happens i just feel like absolute shit

queen clementine: i tend to forget that i not only need to be kind to other people, but to myself too. i always put other people first cause i dont feel like im that important

queen clementine: so its basically just a reminder to myself that i need to take care of myself in order to not feel so fucking depressed all the fucking time and its okay to cry and not want to talk to anyone for a whole day and no one seems to fully fucking understand that

king louis: clemmy...

queen clementine: oh my god please ignore what i just said im sorry im a freak im sorry im so sorry i shouldnt have said any of that

queen clementine: ill go im so sorry i said any of that ill never talk to you again you can take back your tickets im sorry im sorey im soryrt im soruyer imsoeyy

king louis: clementine please dont go

king louis: youre not a freak clementine i can promise you that

king louis: clementine i didnt know you felt that way it just surprised me is all

king louis: clemmy i know how you fucking feel, alright? sometimes i just feel like absolute shit and i cry alone sometimes and no one knows that. youre the only person that does and youre the only person im willing to tell because ive never met someone who has felt like how i did

king louis: its okay to not want to talk to anyone for a whole day. ive done that plently of times and people wonder why and i try to tell them they just truly dont understand how ever way i explain it to them

king louis: clemmy, i really fucking care about you and i want to keep talking to you but if you dont then thats okay but i still want you to have the tickets because you fucking deserve them. youll finally get to see the people that make you happy and every single person in this world deserves that. ESPECIALLY YOU.

king louis: i fucking love you

queen clementine: i love you too

queen clementine: im still a freak though

king louis: if youre a freak, im a freak

king louis: we'll be freaks together

i may or may not have let a tear slip out of my eye while writing this