Sadistic Boy (BoyxBoy)

I'm Nothing

Allan's POV
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What is this? What is this empty feeling? Am I dead?

I thought as my mind stared into the pitch darkness. I felt my lips twist into a smile.
"Ahh...this feels nice." I said as I took a deep breath.
"I wish I could stay like this forever."

My eyes opened wide as I heard a muffled voice. It sounded like a man's voice. I panicked. My heart began to beat loudly in my chest.

"Dad?" I whispered as a light shined into the pitch darkness. I squinted my eyes as I tried to make out the figure in front of me.

"You've been a very bad boy." Said a raspy voice. It was a voice of a smoker.

I felt my eyes become wet from tears.
"I'm sorry dad, I promise I'll do better! Please don't leave my sister and I! Don't leave us with mom."

"But you both aren't useful to me, I don't know why that women wanted children when she doesn't want to take responsibility for you two." He said with a disgusted look on his face.

"Please...Dad! Please...." My voice thinned away as the vision of my father disappeared. A bright light shined on my face and I held up my hand to block it away.

"Your awake?" I heard a voice ask. It sounded familiar.
"Oh thank god I didn't hit you too hard."

"Huh?" I thought as I widened my eyes to get a clearer view of the person in front of me.

"Hey Allan are you feeling alright?" He asked as he laid his hand on my forehead.

Anger overcame me as I remembered what happened. I quickly slapped his hand away.
"You should just leave me alone." I said angrily.

"No I couldn't..I care about you."

"What? Are you gay? Don't you have a girlfriend." I asked.

"Uh yeah..I do but what I meant was that I cared about you as a friend."

I chuckled. "A friend huh?"

He stared at me and gently touched my head. I flinched in pain as I glared at him.
"You didn't have to hit me so hard." I responded.

"Sorry...I didn't know what to do, you wouldn't calm down."

I shook my head. "No I should be sorry, I'm sorry that I put you through that."
Silence overcame the room and I sat there looking around the room.

Where the hell am I? I thought.
"What is this place?" I asked.

"Oh it's a really cheap motel...I had to find a place fast and it was right across the street."

I sighed. "This is nice." I laid back down and stared at the ceiling.

"I've haven't slept in a bed in a long time. I've always slept on the street or on the floor in the homeless shelter."

Cole looked at me. "I'm sorry." He said with sympathy in his voice.

"I don't need your pity." I mumbled as I went deeper in the covers.

I closed my eyes and listened to Cole's footsteps. I've felt tears begin to fall down my cheek.

"Hey Allan I brought some food while you were sleeping earlier. Sit up and eat some."

I felt the weight of the bed go down as he sat.

I glanced out from the covers and looked at him. He was holding a cup of ramen. I chuckled.

"Was this all you could find." I asked.

He nodded his head. "The gas station didn't have much."
"Whatever I'm hungry." I said as I reached for the cup noodle.

He pulled it away from me and shook his head.
"Nope I'm feeding you."

I glared at him. "I can take care of myself." I snapped.

He shook his head. "You should be spoiled every once in a while."

I chuckled. "Fine. You win."

He smiled brightly. "Open wide." he said as he moved the fork towards my mouth. 

I opened my mouth wide as I stared at him. I was still puzzled as to why he is helping me. Does he want something from me because I don't have much to give.

"I really don't understand you." I said as I loudly chewed the food. "How come your not asking me a bunch of questions."

"Because that's none of my business, you can tell me if you want to. I don't want to pressure you into telling me." He smiled as he moved the cup towards my lips.

"Drink." He said.

I glared at him as I moved my mouth to the cup and gulped down rest of the soup broth.

"Mmm its warm." I said quietly as I wiped my mouth. 

He smiled at me and slowly reached over and pinched my nose.

"Ouch! What the hell was that for?" I asked angered by his sudden action.

"You are just too adorable." He said. I blushed brightly. 

"Shut up...stop saying crap."

He chuckled as he slowly got up from the bed and threw away the cup. "Do you want to spend the night here? It's pretty late and I already paid for the night."

I looked at him suspiciously. "What are you planning?"

"Nothing! I swear, I'm just taking responsibility for my actions. It was my fault that you got hurt."

I hesitated. "Then fine, I'll sleep here for the night." I pulled the covers over my head and turned my back to him. I heard him laugh softly.

"Okay then it's settled." He said as he switched the light off. The room was pitch black. A small light from the moon shinned brightly into the room.

I felt the bed go down as the covers were lifted. Cole's warm body slightly touched me and I shuddered from the unexpected warmth that radiated off his body.

"Hey Cole." I said quietly.

"Yeah? What is it?"

"Can you turn around." I asked.

I could feel his body turn. His eyes on my back. I felt a chill run up my spine.

"What's wrong?" He asked worriedly.

I swallowed hard and hesitated. "Can...can you hold me?" My voice shook as I spoke.

"What?" He said confused.

"Please...just hold me."

He hesitated and slowly moved towards me. I could feel his long arms wrap around my waist as his arm moved under my head like a pillow.

I could feel my face turn bright red as I felt his body against mine. I somewhat felt relieved like someone actually kind of cares. My heart began to beat loudly in my chest.

I turned around and faced his chest. I glanced up at his face.

He lifted his arm from my waist and brushed my bangs away from my face. 

"I knew it." He said softly. "You do want to be loved. Your lonely aren't you?"

I softly punched him in the chest. "Stop talking nonsense and go to sleep." I said as I buried my face into his chest.

"Alright." He said as he hugged me tighter. I felt warm tears fall down my face. He's right I am lonely. No one has taken care of me like this, only my sister has.

I felt safe in his warm embrace but I shouldn't get used to it. I'm just going to ruin his life if I stay by his side. 

I won't be waking up with him in the morning. I'm going to leave him before things get out of hand. I'm the last person that he would want to fall in love with.

"Thank you..for caring for me even if it's just for this moment." I said in a whisper.

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