Let Live [Cashby]

He got married?!

Austin's P.O.V

"You got married.. and you didn't tell me, you just avoided me for a month?! Austin we are best friends! We tell each other everything. We trust each other! Don't you trust me?" I look at him, desperation is clear on his face, he can't believe I wouldn't tell me this. We've known each for so long..

"Alan.. let me explain, I wanted to tell you I really did! But after the whole Gielle situation, I didn't know how you would react.." I look at him, and now his avoiding my eyes. I feel so bad, if he only knew I used Jamie to get over him. God I've been in love with him for so long, I don't know how he hasn't noticed. The way he flicks his hair when it falls in front of his eyes, or the way he slightly parts his lips when he tries to figure something out. I wish he wasn't straight..

"Austin, you tell me everything, and you tell me right now! You have avoided me for a month! A whole fucking month and then you come in here and tell me you got married!! WE'RE BESTFRIENDS" ahhh the friendzone, you're really helping me here Alan.. not. I hate it when he screams at me.

"Fine, I'll tell you everything, but you have to sit down and not interupt me okay?" I take a deep breath. I might as well give him the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

"So as you remember, I was asked out by Jamie, and I said yes. But what you don't know is that when he asked me I was kind of using him to get over you Alan, I've been in love with you for a very long time, but I know you're straight and I accepted that. So when him and I got together we decided to go to Mexico for a bit, and we got really drunk one night, neither of us remembers what happened, but we woke up in a church, half naked and married. Jamie freaked out saying how this was to much for him right now and he got an instand divorce, this was a week ago. I've spent the last week trying to get my head together about what to tell you when I saw you today." I look down at the floor, I can't look at him right now, I just admitted my feelings for him and I know what his going to say next.

"Austin.. I.. You.. I.. You know I'm straight, I'm sorry I dont feel the same.."

Alan's P.O.V

"Austin.. I.. You.. I.. You know I'm straight, I'm sorry I dont feel the same.." I say, not looking at him.

At this point Aaron opens the bus door with Taco Bell in his hand and a wide grin on his face.

"Honey I'm home" I laugh at Aaron, his such a funny kid sometimes.

"AAAARRRROOON, Now the party can really start" I scream at Aaron. Aaron just starts to laugh.

I leap up and pull him into a bone crushing hug, when Austin had ignored me all month Aaron and I had started to get close, we had even became each others wing-mans. I was happy to see him right now, he gave some of the best advice and right now, I really did need it.

"Alan your kind of crushing me and I can't breathe anymore" he pants, trying to breathe.

"Oh shit, sorry forgot you need to breathe to live" I laugh as I let go of him.

Austin stands up and hugs Aaron, mumbling about needing to go and set up his bunk and vanishes through the door.

"So Alan, want to eat this Taco Bell and then play some Xbox?" asks Aaron completely oblivious to mine and Austin's behaviour.

"Yeah.. but first I need your advice"

I tell him everything that Austin had told me, the weird thoughts that I had been randomly having about Austin and I. Aaron being Aaron, just sat there and took everything I said in, nodding his head and thinking.

"Well fuck man, have you ever thought you love him? Like really love him more then best-friends? I mean with the thoughts you've been having today, obviously there might be something there, cause you guys have basically spent every moment together for a very long time.." he pauses, waiting for my response.

"I don't know, I mean I'm straight, I like chicks. I mean I always have, Austin on the other hand has always been bisexual, but has been more gay then bi for a very long time. Maybe these thoughts are just because we haven't seen or spoken in a month. I know he loves me, I've known for so long, but I never hinted that I knew, I didn't want to lead him on or anything. After everything with Gielle, he didn't need that." I just look at the floor now, I feel as if that was the wrong thing to say and I don't know why.

"Well at the end of the day, this is going to affect you and him. And the whole band too. But c'mon lets eat these delicious taco's and play some C.O.D" Aaron smiles at me, his a good mate. I don't know what I'd do without him.

Eventually Tino and Phil come in, and join in on the C.O.D game, we smash at killing the zombies and reach level 34. At that point Austin walks out and comes and sits next to Tino, I smile at him but he doesn't even look at me. Then I noticed his eyes were all red and puffy, fuck. He'd been crying.. this was my fault. I shouldn't of said 'Im straight' as my reaction, man I'm such a shitty friend.

"Guys I'll be back, I need to go for a walk.." I state as I get up, avoiding eye contact with everyone, we were parked at a campsite, I guess I could just wander around the campsite for a bit, there was no one here but us.

"Hurry back to us" Aaron calls as I exit, I turn and smile at him. His such a good friend.