Let Live [Cashby]

O.G. Loko

Aaron's P.O.V

"Guys I'll be back, I need to go for a walk.." Alan state's as he gets up, I notice he is avoiding eye contact with everyone, god he has beautiful eyes.

"Hurry back to us" I call to him as he exits, he turns and smile at me, his smile makes my legs feel so weak.

I knew I couldn't stand properly after he smiled at me, so I didn't bother getting up when he left. I turn and look at Austin, his got his head in his hands and his whole body is shaking, god I can't believe his crying now, it's his own fault what happened. How could he have just ignored his best friend for an entire month, then show up here and claim to be in love with him. He didn't see the hell he put Alan through, he didn't even deserve to still be worthy of the 'best friends' title anymore.

Why was Alan even having those thoughts about Austin?! His straight, I of all people should know that.

~ 2 weeks earlier ~

"Allllaaaannnn babyyy come erre" I sing out to Alan, we had been drinking at my house and it was midnight and we were both completely hammered. Alan stumbles towards me with a bottle of Jacks in his hand, god his adorable. Should I try and kiss him? No his straight, but his drunk and chances are he might ago along with it! I shake my head, my mind was made up.

Alan stumbles and falls onto the bed and we both start instantly cracking up, we both drink out of the Jack's bottle, I look over and him and I notice him looking at me, I pull him towards me and we end up falling off the bed with him landing ontop of me. We start laughing, that's when he sits up, straddling me. I lean upwards to kiss him, when suddenly he slaps me and runs off screaming about how his straight and going to bed..

When we woke up the next day he couldn't remember anything about last night, which was thankful because I didn't want things to be weird between us even though we would eventually get over it.

~ the present ~

I shake that memory from my head, I wanted to much to forget it but no matter what I couldn't.

Austin's P.O.V

I was 100% sure whatever friendship I had left with Alan had been destroyed, and it was all my fault. I could feel my phone vibrating but I just ignored it and picked up a remote and started killing zombies on C.O.D, it was good to release my anger at myself on because I put all that anger and frustration into the game.

A few hours later Alan storms into the bus, pissed off and crying. He doesn't even glance at me. His whole body is shaking and all I want to do is pull him into my arms and hold him, telling him it would be okay. Just like I used to, but now he might only think I'm doing that because I love him, god I wish I hadn't of told him that. I decide to check my phone, weird 6 missed calls and 4 messages. All from Alan, no wonder he was pissed off, I get up and head to my bunk to read them.

I open the first one:

'Austin, I can understand why you ignored me but I wish you didn't, I wouldn't have gotten mad or anything, I would of sat and listened like a best friends meant to, please answer my call?'

Oh Alan, you really don't understand do you?

'Austin please I really need to talk to you, it's important. It's about us, and our future please Austin.'

I pause, before opening the third one. What future, we don't have a future other than being friends.

'I'm going to keep calling until I have to come back to the bus, please come see me, I'm sitting underneath the lemon tree, please Austin please.'

Why was he so desperate to see me?

'I give up, you obviously don't want to see or speak to me again, other then playing on stage and doing interviews I'll stay out of your way and not talk to you, I needed to see you Austin I really did, it was important and you don't care. I'm sorry for wasting your time trying to talk to you about us and our future.'

I read that last line in the text over and over, I should talk to him.. I have to see him and he needs to understand I wasn't ignoring his calls or texts because they were him I was just ignoring my phone.

I open the curtain of my bunk to see a very pissed off Phil, he looks like his about to hit me.

"You and me outside now." He screams before going outside.

well fuck.