My Masquerade Girl

chapter 21: tears of HANNAH

Jillian's Pov

right now i'm full halos nalibot na namin mga restaurants dito

and have taken  a bites of our favorite foods.. aswell shopped some goods

then napagddecide na naming umuwi gumagabi na din kasi

my eyes were distorted from the direction they refracted..

i saw a guy na parang kakatawan ni Klairenz

he was standing by his car..in the garage of the mall

kissing a girl about my height with a long firmly curled brown hair...

anneyo(no) baka nagkakamali ako baka hindi siya ..

umiling iling ako at akmang tatalikod nako

Wayne: that's your husband right there..he's that guy with a girl kissing him torridly

ok...mukhang hindi nagkamali ang hinala ko siya nga yon...Xiang wayne ge's statement just proved that guy was my so called husband..

bumalik ako ng tingin .. i can see Klairenz hands on that girl's  shoulders na mahigpit na nakahawak ...d*mn is he enjoying??? and i can see kung paano halikan ng babaeng yun na nakahawak pa sa may batok at mukha ni Klairenz

i also see daggers flying over my chest... i felt raindrops on my eyes ...my fist were tightened... hindi ko maipaliwanag bakit parang sa point na to parang mas gusto ko pang magpasagasa sa mga dumadaang sasakyan.. kaysa magpakalunod sa pesteng tubig na pumapatak sa mga mata ko!

nasasaktan ako,,

 nasasaktan

nasasaktan!!!!

akala ko napaka-immune na ng puso ko dito eh

akala ko nalimot na ng functioning system ngpuso ko ang word na "pain"

alam ko ng ibenta ko buhay ko tinapon ko na din emosyon na meron ako

akala ko wala na si Hannah pero ba't pakiramdam ko andito pa din siya 

bakit nagmamahal pa din siya

at bakit nasasaktan nanaman siya?

ang sakit..ang sakit pala...ang sakit talaga..

PERO hinde hinde hinde ako pwede manghina at umiyak nalang!

pinunasan ko luha ko ng kamay ko... i turned back...

but i felt hands holding tightly iniharap niya ako... at ipinasok sa sports car na kulay yellow.. ican see the serious looks in his darkened chinky eyes...

 pero bago ako nakapasok i saw kalirenz gasp.. he seems calling me out ,,or just another me nagiimagine

he's driving calm but i can feel the speed we stopped at the "sky restaurant" doon sa restaurant eh clear mong makikita ang dagat..it was a place na kaunti ang tao at mukhang a perfect place magpaalis ng sama ng loob

Wayne: FOR ONCE MAGPAKATOTOO KA.!

jillian: xiang wayne ge?

hindi siya galit pero nararamdaman kong he mean what he's saying kasi binibigyan niya ng emphasis

wayne: hannah pwede kahit ngayong gabi lang magpakatotoo ka..take that mask off just for tonight give hannah a chance to cry ..a chance to yell..just an hour to live as her.. kalimutan mo muna dapat mong gampanan si jillian.. for once admit you love him..admit your hurt...

bukod sa pamilya ko ay siya lang ang nakakaalam ng lahat.

Jillian: pero..hah..huhu.hu pero..huh.ha

Wayne: hindi ko talaga maintindihan bakit kailangan mo issofucate yang feelings mo para sakanya! kasal kayo ! for goodness sake!

 kasal sila ni jillian..ano mang kay jillian hindi kay hannah...

hindi ko siya pwedeng mahalin kasi baka pag dumating ang araw kelangan ko ng bitawan ang katauhan ni jillian ay hindi ko magawang gawin kasi mahal ko siya at baka hindi nako bumitaw!

Wayne: ok i wont ask anymore alam kong hindi mo sasagutin ..but let hannah exist for an hour let her cry..don't worry i'll stand by her

HE gave me his coat habang nakaupo lang kami sa may  bench ng restaurant wherein nakaharap kami sa sea...   i was crying..louder than a baby on her cradle.. habang nakaakbay sakin si Xiang Wayne ge.. and everytime i would open my mouth to say a word.. he'll stare with me hindi ko madescribe ang stare niya para bang naawasiya then he will casually mouth the name "hannah"..

he comforts me..

at hindi ko man masabi to dahil hindi kona mapatid ang iyak at hikbi ko

  Xiang wayne ge ssi-ni(thankyou) for being here in this point in my life making me feel i exist even just for this night

                                                                                                                                -lee, HAN_NAH

 missfireflies speaking:

guys sorry no edits ako sa mga chapters ko lately napaka mild at may mga typo pagpasensyahan nyo na muna :) enjoy reading..