Just a replacement (one direction)

Chapter 4.

Dear Jake

I know I only met you once but I think I should tell you a bit about my life and how it's been lately, so everyone will think you're really me. I'll begin at the moment where Liam, Harry, Zayn and Louis became One Direction.

It was a friday in July, July the 23th in 2010 to be excactly. That day changed my life, from then on I spended most of my time with the boys who are now my four best mates. We did a weekly video diary and in those video's I laughed a lot, there were fans who love my laugh but also a lot of people made fun of me for the way I laughed, it was the beginning of a life where I get to do what I love almost every day, but also a life with lots of hate....

After X factor, when we became more famous in other countries too and we got a fanbase. I was totally happy, for the first time in my life I felt like I was doing the right thing, I finally found my place with four best friends. We got our first album and we went on tour, it was really great seeing all those people going to your concerts to hear what music you make and how you act. But for me it was less good than for the others, when I came online on twitter and I read my mentions, I always got sad. I remember seeing tweets saying: 'I really love One Direction but that blond one doesn't deserve to be in the band, I don't even try to remember his name, he's ugly.' Those messages made me upset, I always was known as the boy with a big appetite but I started to eat less, because people called me fat. And I started to feel like it was true, I really was fat, I was the ugly one, I didn't deserve to be in the band. I started to workout more and more and I felt a bit better about myself.

Till our second album came out, I was really happy with the album, I wrote/co-wrote some of the songs and I got more solo's than in the first album. But the hate on us all didn't stop, when one of the boys got a girflriend, she deserved hate, when Louis and Harry looked at eachother they were 'gay'. The hate on me didn't increase anymore, since I got my braces I wasn't the ugly boy with the crooked teeth anymore, but I still felt like that. I was insecure and the boys didn't really notice, only Liam who became my bestfriend trough these years knew I was insecure, but even he didn't know how serious I was when I said I needed a break, to escape from the world and the hate.

So when I met you, my plan to get a break suddenly was complete, from now on you'll be Niall Horan, my friends are now your friends, if you like them or not. You're Niall Horan, you laugh a lot, when you're in public you always eat more than the other boys, in interviews you should just stay silence a bit, only answer questions when it's necessary, and on-stage, you just playback, also during your solo's. I always play a lot guitar during the performances so If you can play guitar, you can do that, else you should just grab the guitar and pretend to play it. I'm left handed so make sure you also pretend to be that. You'll get my salary so I don't think money will be the problem.

Good luck and thank you so much, I think I'll be back in one or two months.

Niall Horan

Wow, I didn't knew they had it this hard, I always joked a bit about One Direction, together with my friends, and now I am a member of that band. I'll have fans, who will think I'm the real Niall Horan, I think I should do some research online to know more about him.

When I've layed there in my new bed for a while, I suddenly realise that I'll have to handle this hate too, I'm Niall Horan now, I have fans and I have haters, and I'll have to handle them both.... I hope I can take this better than the real Niall.

"Hello wake up! Man you're hard to wake up, Zayn can you get some water, I think that's the only way to wake Jake up." Who is this boy in my room, who is this Zayn he's talking to, why is he going to get water? Wait shit water? I'm wide awake, I hate it when people wake me up by throwing water over my face. I look around the room and realise that I'm not in my own house, I chose another life.