YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE a Lyvia, Gruvia story

JUST LET HER FINISH :1

" so that you wouldnt ask why my decision, ended the way i decided. Just let me finish" she forced an annoyed smile as she glared my way.

So that i wouldnt ask??? Well what the hell! Ofcourse my mind would be flooded with querries, once her answer, which ive been waiting for so, so long, slipped out her perfect lips.

TWO YEARS AFTER. . .

"So, what do you wanna do today?" I heard Lucy 's voice, before i found her, along with Natsu, standing behind my slouched form.

I actually planned to stay at home all day. Laze around, but seeing as they stormed inside my house, i know they wanted me out and moving. Not that i care, for its not something i could find new. For ever since that day, that fateful day, that Juvia had given me the answer i longed for so long, i found myself, wakening with realities. Countless realities.

Finally, i had woken from my disturbing slumber, and saw the truth, veiled with loss.

" i dont know maybe i just want you two to leave me the hell alone." I breathed. Wrong answer though, for after i finished my sentence i was picked, forcefully, out my very comfy chair, and thrown into someone's shoulder.

All the air felt like it was squeezed out my lungs from the impact, making my vission cloudy, leaving me gasping like a fish out of water.

"Great just Great thank you very much for Listening to my EVERY WORD. i appreciate it very much" i sulked after i recovered from the pain. Hanged like a rag on Erza's shoulder, i got no other choice but to watch her back, which at the moment, appear so interesting, as i stayed limp at her grasp.

"You're very much welcomed. Now lets have to hurry, before Juvia give away all the cake." Erza breathed and even without looking at her face, i know her eyes sparkled at the mention of cake. Her very treasured cake, delicious cake as she describes them.

Juvia.

Juvia

JUVIA. . .

Just her name alone, is enough to make me smile. Enough, for my sky, so dark, so lifeless, shower the earth, not with rain, but with flowers of springs.

I remember that day.

TWO YEARS BEFORE . . .

"so that you wouldnt ask why my decision, ended the way i decided. Just let me finish" she forced an annoyed smile as she glared my way.

So that i wouldnt ask??? Well what the hell! Ofcourse my mind would be flooded with querries, once her answer, which ive been waiting for so, so long, slipped out her perfect lips.

"I love Lyon. . ." she slowly breathed.

Ofcourse, she do. I know she would say that phrase. I prepared myself for it. But why does it feel this way?

I feel like, no matter how hard i prepare myself, i would never be prepared to take the pain. The pain of realities. Realities that was served infront my very eyes. Its already under my nose, yet, i chose to ignore.

Now my heart is breaking. Slowly, oh so slowly its breaking. My heart made of ice, shattering with the truth i saw blindly.

For no matter how much i prepare myself,

I would still get hurt, and if it is possible, it hurts far worse, than that without me preparing for it.

She love Lyon.

I know she do.

Juvia, love Lyon . . .

JUVIA LOVE LYON.

I wanted to cry, but i couldnt. That would be weakness in her eyes.

I wanted to cry so badly, but i couldnt, i forgot how to.

They say, they consider a person strong if he hides his pain. But no, Not for me.

One isnt strong if he pretends. Pretends to be okay, even if its already obvious he's not.

We have to cry every once in a while.

We have to free our pain.

Because if not, it would all be stuck inside, and our emotion leaves us.

They say, the greatest pain is when you're smiling, just to stop the tears from falling.

Yes, that is true. Oh so very true.

Now, standing infront the woman i had loved unconsciously, her words rung in my mind repeatedly.

I opened my mouth to speak, but no word left my lips.

"I love Lyon . . ." she repeated, adding pressure to my now shattering heart.

There i stood, mouth agape, watching as her eyes so deep, turned distant.

"But no matter how much i Love him, it wont surpass, the feeling that i have towards you." She breathed softlt, i almost wasnt able to hear.

She love me?

Juvia love me?

Juvia still love me.

I cant imagine how happy i got. Hearing her words.

"I love Lyon, but i love u greater, and i hate it for its unfair!" Juvia cried as i saw her eyes water.

At the same time the skies darkened warning of a heavy rain pour anytime soon.

Is this all i do to her? Darken the skies above from the pain of rejections i've given her before?

I dont want to see her cry. But i dont have to courage to say what i trully feels.

I feel like a coward compared to Lyon.

Lyon, he who could give her anything.

All, the things i couldnt give.

" its so unfair!!" She wailed as she slumped on a chair. Crying.

" its so unfair. Lyon deserve to be happy just like i do too. We were fine before you came back" she breathed remorsefully as tears ran down her flushed cheeks.

"Its not fair Juvia" i found myself saying. As i knelt infront of her. My palm rested on her shoulder.

Slowly, she met my eyes, and i feel hurt knowing i brought her this.

Why cant i be like Lyon. Why cant i be just like him.

He who had always been so honest with Juvia...

"How is it not fair? Lyon had always loved me since the first time he saw me. And all i ever did  was to hurt him. All i ever did was tail after you. all i had ever done was Love you" She spoke and i cant help but painfully wince at her words.

. . .